Listening to: Four Kick by Kings of Leon

I have not been giving fuck lately to anyone lately, which means life is really boring because I did not look for trouble. No I have not packed yet but my dad keeps talking and talking and talking as if I ain't coming back. Wtf. Ask this ask that and all that.
I'm just seeing it as a vacation. Long term vacation, that's that and that's it. Lately I just do not understand why I couldn't see some people. You know, you planned something, get excited and it gets cancelled. Ya fuck that.
It felt it was just yesterday you entered college, having all these culture shocks and met lots of scary and outspoken people that freaks me out that turns me into a really anti-social boy for the 1st term. I'm just surprised that wow, is that even normal? Damn. I guess right now, at this point, I miss all of my college friends. Felt its been a long long journey. Really good friends you have met along the way, things we have done together as the whole bunch of us. Man, those were sweet memories. Haven't seen you guys for about 2 weeks and it didn't felt good at all. Godamnit. We need to meet up for real. Please.
fuck emo.

Listening to: I try by Macy Gray

That was quite a show, very entertaining.
Game over, I played by the rule but I guess I was outplayed.
Geez, I'm too sensitive over shit like this.
Oh well, flip the next page and write about it.
Goodbye now.

Listening to: To be with you by Mr Big

When they say swimming is the best sport, you have to agree. And hell yeah, for me.
The whole purpose of swimming is to get toned yo. Forget about the rest, I swim just to lose these stubborn fats and to shape up and not forgetting to grow taller. haha!
Yes I admit that I do google for images of swimmers. Guilty as charged.
Not gay alright, is just for motivation! So I came across these 2 pictures actually which is damn awesome by only swimming!



Dude, that is just huge guns. Moderately huge.

And here's Phelps doing his butterfly stroke. And yes, proven that butterfly stroke defnitely tones your body muscles the fastest. It's tough for beginners to perform this strokes but enough practice is good already.



And yeah, when you swim for long period of time, the most obvious difference is you'll have this upper neck muscles first. Then you will start to notice your triceps. Which is damn awesome!
Train triceps to have bigger biceps remember that!

Listening to: Going Under by Evanesense

Well, I did not have a pleseant wake up call this morning. SIGHH!
And yes, it affected my mood and goddamn I'm screwing every piece of shit since I woke up. The new neighbours are moving in so they have major renovation taking place. And yes, dogs will bark including mine. What next? My niece screaming everytime she passes my room and screaming along with the tv in the living room. Give me a break will ya people please?
I bet its going to be the same damn commotion when I wake up in the morning tomorrow. Besides, did I mention that my new neighbour are going to have 8 motherfucking dogs?! 8 goddamint 8 mofo dogs! Geez, what the fuck is wrong having just 2/3 dogs but 8?! Dad says he's a dog trainer. I thought dog trainer only trains mass amount of dogs, they don't own that mass amount of dogs don't they?
And, I saw this new owner anyway, he was checking and all the other day, I wanted to smile and said hi, but he ignored me like totally. Jackass.
Don't you be so arrogant, you're new in town aight. Arrogant bastard. I would say he's prolly in his mid 40s? Moustache, specky, belly ==. At least he's got a cool dog so I'll give him credits.
Damn, you just brought down the 24years durian tree. It was the legend tree ok. Aihhhh
It's going to smell weiyh since he got 8 dogs and they are all going to poo poo and the hell is going to throw all that poo poos?

Listening to: Love is Gone by David Guetta

You know that feeling is just so not right? It's just not going right. I guess I'm just being paranoid. I don't know seriously. I'm trying my best just to get along and all that. So many things still running around my mind. Saying this that. I guess I just would have to just wait ae?
Hey, thanks for listening. Appreciate it, take care now.

Listening to: Don't Speak by No Doubt

I finally know what I wanted to buy. lol.
It's actually drum roll please! x)

It's actually a GodDamnit Aviators sunglasses! Langkawi is really a very very hot and sunny place, so yeah, it suits my theme! :D





I don't give a damn what mofo branded shit and all. I am just looking for good aviators!

Listening to: Like A Stone by Audioslave

Yup yup, ahhh the Xmas joy... Roasted turkey, macaroni, goddamn good food I don't know. Only my aunts celebrate x'mas every year. For me xmas is a celebration with friends, your loved ones, your girlfriends, families. Time for reunion and all that social thingy on how your relatives/uncle auntie has complained how fat have you grown or how tanned are you since they last saw you and things like that. And yes, not forgetting good beers as well. ;)
I see most of my friends got their wishES list done. x) Some are well far far far close to getting your sight on it or even to *gulp* think of it. I'm not saying people are just greedy, it's just wish list. Put whatever you want as long you behave and Santa knows that. Lol.
So yeah I was out the last week week like err 4 days a week maybe to Aeon? ==
No big deal, I wanted to buy that iPod shuffle that only costs RM99 and with membership only 79! How cool is that?! Well, my Sony Mp3 Walkman basically died on me a few times. *yes that purple thumbdrive-look-alike. * It's been lets see 4 years ae? Dad got me for something. Can't remember. Anyway, I did not buy or ask someone else to buy me a new music tool. Cos, later I found out it was the earphone that failed me. Sigghhh. So yea, I saved my cash, did not spend on the new iPod instead I chose to buy a Philips earphone which is soo soo cool. Saved at least 70bucks.
On the other hand, I came to stop by this particular shop which I think she would love it as a gift. I don't know, I'm just so not me when choosing gifts ya know. And far more, it's a CHRISTMAS GIFT! So yeahh, after spending most of my days there walking around, I think, why not? Probably she likes it. Probably not. When plan A fails you need plan B which plan B means to execute plan A by all means. Haha! Oh well, things didn't went the way I wanted to but Xmas is still long way for me. Out of nowhere, I feel I'm leaving really soon, is like this whole thing is like a long sleep and I wake up one day I find I'm away from here. You know that feeling that just don't feel right at all. Ishhh FML. It's a new thingy for me though, getting gifts for xmas, shopping, the hustle and what not. It's going to be nice I guess. I'll see where the wind blows. Hell no.

When you love something, you set it free right?

Listening to: Bad Romance by Lady GaGa.

According to Shaun, "First year just ended, now what?"
Well, that's basically a good question. All of us, as we know, has been placed in their hotels respectively for their interns. Jeremy, Ben, Kev, and I will be leaving on the 3rd to have a better look on the place, the island and all that. Geez, I'm so so so afraid I put on weight after interns! Gahhhh!
Well at least Jeremy's bringing his weights and I'll be bringing the exercise mat. It will not be that bad ae? No?
I just can't wait for the cheap stuff I'll be bringing home. Weeeeee~~~
Oh the joy of leaving this miserable place. Hell not I care if I suffer in training, I promise myself to enjoy myself there. When things don't go your way, just get a Heineken and get over it. >D

I'm so so so gonna miss yooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu so muchhhhh when you're not around! ):

You don't get something for nothing without giving out your soul.

Year end exam is tomorrow. 3hours of Hospitality Operations. FML.
Yet, I've not finished covering everything. I'm a little worried, I'm a little over confident.
I won't screw this up! (:

All the best to yo DH,DC,DT, BDH 33? lol

*after that kita pergi minum minum dan partayyyyy! xDD*

So there I have it, Westin Langkawi called, I answered, and dang I'm accepted for my industrial training. Mixed emotions I'll say. I'm happy I'm leaving, at the same time I'll miss my homeboys back here. 3months of no balling, 3months of no swimming, 3months of no bah kut teh. Damnit!
I'll make my 3months enjoyable though. Booze all night long yo. haha.
It's unbelievable how time passed. Geez, time flies ae? I'm so going to miss all my college friends. No more hustlin, no more jeng jeng, no more amp square, no more yam cha, no more mah 7, no more 7 down, no more meh hai. Gahhhhh!
I'm leaving on the 3rd of Jan coming back only on the 27th of March. I'm soooooooooooo gooooonnnna miss everyone! I have no idea if I could come back on CNY that I wish I can!
14th Feb eh. haha

So, yes, finals is like less than a week. Cool.
Cheers yo

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I'm break down?
So what if the world just throws me off the edge
my feet run off the ground?

I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound,
Don't care about the pain in front of me,

Cause I'm just trying to be happy.

When you thought things are going your way, just as planned. What if it comes to a stop out of nowhere and you really saw that coming?

Never thought I would encounter this breathing difficulty, again. I thought it has just fade as I grow older. As I was playing basketball, I, said to myself "Oh, what the hell is going on?" I just felt hard to breathe , is like your heart is punctured or something. I ignored, continued played, then there it is again. This time I stopped. Putting my hands on my knees, giving myself time to catch air. I have to breathe and breathe and keep breathing. I thought, maybe it was the concussion, then I remember not getting hit by anyone or I hit anyone. It just wham after a jump shot. The feeling is like, you're stuck underwater, you're trying to rise to get air, but you can't. Yes, it was that awful. I did my cardio and I guess that wasn't the problem either.
This time around, seek advice. I guess I just pushed myself too hard. It was quite an experience. Forgettable one indeed.

Reach for the marker instead of the blade. Always remember of your loved ones.

LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT!

I've done my part, have you?

What if I know you're just like her?
What if I know you just toy me?
What if I'm just joke?
What if I'm a fool all these while?

What if I'm right? I cannot take these mind games anymore. Just say it off and I'll disappear.

Well ya we had a very small gathering on the last saturday night amongst us, the secondary buddies. Supposedly a surprise birthday for Han Wei & Eng Wei? haha! How come I wasn't informed about this? Things went pretty well that night. Almost everyone that I last contact with showed up, Wan Xian, Ying, Jo, Hui San, Keong, Kelly and alot lahh. hahaha! We catched up a little bit, life is still a bitch lahh yea.
So yeah, my face gets red when I'm under the influence of alchohol. Han Wei popped the white wine cos we had cheese cake for him, so yeah, I drink wine and I had like 5,6 cups? hahaha! Sorry lahh no glass. My face was like a lobster, but it was all good. I don't get drunk easily. And I drove home safely. *wink.

Still sober.



Ying and my most trustworthy friend Lee Lian.



Family portrait. LOL! Xian, Jo and Hock. Classmates 07-08.



Xian and I.



Now you see how red my face is. Tun sean and I.



Ying and Xian. BFFs.




Cheers babe (:

I am lustful I am angst, I am envy. I am greed over you.

I'm just trying these new skins. I know butterflies and all that, just give me time. Laugh out loud .

(:

Go behind the scenes, unlock the myth. The question that keeps running in every men's head. Why women take so long to dress up? Now, let's go behind the scenes yah. (:



















Men, now we know why. (:

This feeling, so familiar, it come and go. Ah yes, the feeling to start to love again.
I guess I'm all over you. Sometimes I wandered back to the past, promised myself not to be the fool again.
I know you are the one, I just know..... Godamnit, I hope you'll never bring me back to the haunting past. Your smile during that night has melted my heart.

I hereby promise will cherish you. (:

What to wear, what to wear, what to wear.... for PROM ?

I was with a friend. A basketball mate to be exact, he's married, got family on his own, and a company. So we chatted a little bit, catching up and all. See, I just like talking to people who have a lot of experiences in life. Everything they say, it makes you wonder, ponder about the questions they come up with.
He asked me this, put yourself in my shoes,and you think back in life, which part of life did you enjoyed the most? Kindergarten, primary school, secondary and now college. I had my the best time of my life in college he said. "I always wanted to do bungee jumping, go for camps, travel, hitchhike or whatever that is adventurous. But looking at my age now, and you tell people you wanna do all this. You always think more than just twice. I can't do anything now. I'll think of my wife, my kids, my family, my job". That was what he shared to me. Come to think of it, what have I done during the last decade of my life? Study and strive to get A's . Then what next? Work, get your pay day, then what? I'm not discouraging anyone to not study. But, did I live life I asked myself this? Come to think of it, I did not. Sadly.
I go to school, I studied, finished my schooling life. And I'm done. Live life to the fullest, I have not done that yet. I've not done scuba diving, I've certainly have not jumped off a bungee, and not swim with the sharks perhaps. You see, life never takes two, we only live once. Certainly I do not want to live with regrets. So when do you start to live your life? I say, college is still not to late to carry on life.
It's time to start living. (:

How can one fucking fucked your whole family and pretend as if one has not done wrong?
I'm just curious you see. What if one fucked your parents instead of you? You wanna fuck fine, fuck me. lol. What's the family has to do with your fuckings? Putting on a plastic to class acting all cuddled up, sigh. Please. Take a bow. Well, you see, I am no pushover, I do forgive but I never forget. I hold a deep grudge and yes you can count on it. (:
I do not care you, or them, but it is what it is now. As usual I would say, you're just pushing it perhaps?
You must be wondering, the fuck is wrong with this guy after such long incident had taken place? Let me tell you something B I T C H H H H .. you just can't say fuck your parents hard or you, or whoever you feel like fucking because it ain't your day or something, then take it all back and pretended nothing has happened. Uh uh, Oh wait, I forgotten you're that slut that did not even take back those words. Ah yes yes yes. Wow, damn, life's a bitch, so are you, whadda' ya know. =/ You're intelligent bells are ringing now? That took a while.
Everyone is nice. Everyone has patience, but BITCH, patience has its limits. That one up there, sorry to say you ain't got family education. And my dad ain't a faggot. I am not born motherfucker cos if I am, I would already slept with your mom. Plus, I will not die by car/big truck/or bulldozer crushing over me and left the blood juices over. In fact, I will die with a smile on my face, go to heaven, and say Hey bitch, how's hell? Cos there's where you're heading to. I will have my karma and all for typing this cursing you to hell and all. But hey, at least we're even right? . . . Well, maybe not. haha!
I'm very easy going alright. So listen slut, an apology won't solve anything and I already assume you won't apologize either. So, why don't you take a look at this note and tell me who the fuck is at fault here. I mean, wait, though fucks and nut balls I'm writing this bullcrap, you would probably say, who the fuck cares? I fucked your parents and your whole family + you, I've been there done that, who the fuck cares now anyway? haha. You're right you know your just right. You always do seriously. You were always right, never at fault. There are things in the world you can just ignore, I've been ignoring for too long, but thanks to you, you hit the jackpot! Ding ding! Thanks for playing weiyh seriously. You won the grand prize for 1 freaking day to confront me. :) Call moi! I'll be waiting, bitch stare, stare cock, go ahead. lol. That means I know you'd already read this. Pass this around will ya? Thanks.

I was here before. This situation has been a numb to me. The noise, the voice, the commotion. It's not the first neither it will be the last.
How long more can I take this? Dad always asks me to keep my cool. My temper is killing me from inside out. But dad, everyone has a limit. I understand that her condition is that way and I don't blame God or mom. But this must not continue further. I am growing up and people live people die. I asked myself, people die everyday, why don't you? I hate her so much. She has been a shame. Nothing but a pitiful piece of shit. Seriously, I am old enough to act. When shit happens, both of you asked me to lock myself in my room. I used to cry and asked if God ever exist, if HE do exist why is HE doing this? Mom & dad is getting old . I am not a good son neither am I a bad son. Sometimes, I just couldn't take this anymore. Who to share my problems with?
I've tried to talk to counselors but I just couldn't be brave enough. I tried to talk to my friends, I'm afraid they will leave me because of my situation. I'm embarrassed to have this happening to me. I have been living in this way since I was a kid. Home sweet home ae? I fucking hate that phrase so.
These tears, will they stop rolling down my cheeks ever? I told myself I've changed, left the past behind, but past never leave me behind. This shit must not go on.
I need a ear that will not run away from me for am I embarrassing myself.

I'm back to college. Resuming my 3rd term. Which is also the 1st year end then after that I'm off to industrial training.
So today in kitchen, we prepared mornay crabcakes, yorkshire pudding & roasted beef. Few techniques learnt, a new day, a new knowledge. I volunteered to actually remove the fats from the beef and actually asking Esther to "orgy" the beef. LOL!
Quite a good teamwork actually since she got the brains when I can offer some strength to actually also "orgy" the meat.
Okay. This is my first time handling beef and also actually sniffed the meat and all. Ughhh. Well, I don't take beef so I do not know. (:
The angels were tempting me with the beef and all. Nope. It don't work on me. hahaha!



Yes, I volunteered. Good thing I did! Learn something about it. The fats are actually more stubborn than me.



The virgin. Esther tied it so "tight" and called it the virgin. *blood*.



Green peas to be blanched.



Our hands were bloody bloody after all those trussing. Gruesome.



Yorkshire pudding. Quite sad lah since I cannot take beef, I have to eat this only.



The end product ready to be served. Mornay crabcakes.



Main course, Beef, yorkshire pudding, carrots, green peas to be served, gueridon service.

This is one killer bod. Totally an art. I was shocked when I found out this body belongs to the "soft look of Bae Yong Joon." Maybe you know him from the Korean hit series Winter Sonata.



The puzzle, the picture. They don't come together don't they.

College resumes tomorrow as this is the final term for Year1. Approaching to industrial training very soon as no Chinese New Year for me. Sigh. Wishing DH33 all the best. Though the current Group2 isn't what I dreamed of. But 10 of us will still bring the house down. Though I will miss you lots Kah Wen. I wish you all the best in your near future. No matter where you go, what you do. You were always part of us in Group2 Dh33. See you soon.

Finally. My keyboard is fixed. I am now able to blog

Some gr@phics m@y cont@in violence or gore. Viewers discretion is @dvised.

Look @t the size of th@t d@mn mushroom!












Squeeky cle@n @fter the m@ss murder.



S@uteing it for now. Not cooked yet JEREMY!!



Pumpkin soup to be served! Esther's @rt~~



Fine chopped p@rsley. Into love sh@pe. Wow. Someone's in love.



The end product of the whole G2. @wesome dishes.



Fin@l touch to be served.

@nd fin@lly, desserts, Bl@ck Forest. :)



Voil@. Goodbye Chef Loke. Th@nks for everything. :)

Firstly, p@rdon for I h@ve to use the @ inste@d of A coz the keybo@rd's broken.
So Yes, for the fin@l week of kitchen pr@ctic@ls, we m@de Bl@ck forest c@ke in P@stry cl@ss. :)
@s I h@ve promised some of my friends to b@ke for the b'd@y, I guess the Bl@ck forest h@s to be the one bec@use I @m running out of time!
I kept wondering why w@s Bl@ck forest is expensive @t the m@rket. NOW, I know why.
Mise en pl@ce is done.



Techniques @re the ones th@t killed Jeremy & I.



Yes Jeremy I know. We're @lmost done. Fin@lly. My h@nds @re cr@mping @s well.



Not long @fter, r@ge took over us. We sped up no m@tter how p@inful our @rms hurts!




The end result, with the @ddition of choco powder.



*the following shots of Bl@ck Forest c@ke h@s not been t@ken due to short@ge of time*

Need me to define how fun are they?