I am not supposed to be here. I should be counting down. Damn.
Doors of resoulutions and revolutions are opening. This is my first time having getting all pumped out for this new year of 2009.
I shouldn't be blogging. I should be cheering. I should be flirting. I should be partying. I should, I should, ...

Happy New Year in advance. An Ox could get the year of their own, why not you?
*Damn is the new O-M-G.* Dammmmnn I'm good! xD

I LOVE MY PHONE, I HATE MY LINE!
WHAT IF LAVENDER CALLS AGAIN?!
FUCK!

1st batch of National Service (NS) has already begun on the 27th December, Saturday.
Well, only two of lovely friends went for the 1st batch. I'll certainly miss them loads.
Jessie was one of the first batches to attent for this training. Sadly her birthday is on the 2nd of January which she won't be here to celebrate her birthday with her friends. I hope people there are treating you nice and take good care of yourself aight.
Yean May, well well, what can I say. LOL.
She's been looking forward to it (its sarcasm) ever since she found out she was greeted "TAHNIAH".
She did left everyone of us a note, if thats what we're calling it these days.
She e-mailed to everyone of us with our names and some description. Damn. I gotta say mine was so darn wrong! Ishhhh!

Friends, you will be resuming back your training after the Chinese New Year. Till then we'll meet again. No doubt, I'm missing both of you already. xD
So bored at home. Aihh.
Seriously, 75 days, "it won't be soon before long."


Take care,
Cheers.

No point arguing on who was right and who was wrong.
No point talking about it anymore. The past is the past. She's moved on, I should too. Eventhough all this might sounds cliche, but who cares.
She doesn't seem to be bothered about it. So why should I? I mean should I be?
I really gotta pick my words much carefully this time, as people are starting to take notice on what I write these days. Not to bullshit or to boast, but seriously I thought no one would take notice but who knew one day people came to me and started talking about my issues. LOL.
I'm still living my life. Nothing else I would asked for. I realized that, why commit into something that are hurtful to you? I should have "let go" long ago. Maybe my life would've changed. I'm happy that all those confusing so called love stories has finally over. Yipppee! xD
In case you didn't know, I already know, almost everything. Its NOT MY LOST. :)

I thought this day would never come. I finally left my life that are filled with remorses all these years. Words probably could not be explained how glad I am now! xD

Merry Christmas.

Wishing to all my friends, relatives and my dear readers a very merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. :)

I've just crossed the line. They too!

Everyone! I've watched this movie, and it was fantastic. Superb work from Jim Carrey again. Its about this guy (Jim) who says no to everything. Giving excuses on things he rejects. One day, he met up with his old friend, and (Jim) was recommended to go for this YES seminar where everyone will say yes to almost anything in their lives.
Things started changing for him and he met the girl of his dreams.

For further info, you gotta check out this movie people!
I'm watching it again tomorrow with kawan kawan. Coz I just found out that there are more after the credits! Look out people! :)

Gazing at you, reminds me that I was blinded by love.
Now, I know, I must make sure, that I won't fall for that same mistake again.
What a fool.
History will NOT repeat itself in the chapters of my life. Not you.

I've made my mind to go Segi College Subang Jaya!
I'm taking Hotel Management as I planned before and uhm, hopefully I chose the right place and the right path.

I think I really need to resume or either practice more on my skectches and drawings. It really did lack of soul and spirit in every drawing I've drawn for a while now. My Ps2 died, and I decided to draw a portrait of me and Teng.
It sucks real bad.I gotta hate myself for this.

Hey! I do support a football team ok?
Whats my favourite player? Ricardo Kaka of course.
Hated player, Cristiano Ronaldo. He's just too fancy about his looks and his skills.
Nothing much. He should've stayed low profile. Will get him out of troubles I guess.
I've liked AC Milan for a while now. Coz Andriy Shevchenko was and is an AC Milan. xD

3 stupid things in the world u fear most:
1. Lizards
2. That noise when scratched on that blackboard
3. Illness

3 stupid things you do when you're alone and free:
1. Sleep
2. PlayStation
3. Going out

3 stupid things you ever said to anybody:
1. Use your brain. Oh, I'm sorry your head couldn't fit one.
2. What the fuck is wrong you.
3. Shut up before I call you a bitch.

3 stupid things anyone ever said to u:
1. Are you really 17?!
2. You looked like a panda.
3. You are okay you know. If you could talk lesser then that'll be perfect.

3 stupid things in the world you really care about:
1. My drawings.
2. My shoes.
3. My bags.

Are you a sad person?
Swings real fast.

3 persons to tag:
Anyone who has not done any tags before.

Unfortunately for Sam, I have more obsession on Gaspard instead on Edward. xD
And, reminder that I am NOT GAY.
French people are amazing huh? According to my sister, French men are the greatest looking people. I still don't really support that idea though. The only French people I know is err Zinadine Zidane? * chun chun one larhh *.
After seeing these photoshoots of Gaspard, I still think he is much better than Rob Pat. Note that Robert isn't that mesmerizing as he is in Twilight.

" I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go. Somedays I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end. I wish that I could believe, that there's a day you'll come back to me. But still I have to say, I will do it all again. Just want you to know. " - Backstreet Boys.

I feel inspired to write today for now, this moment.
I don't know, maybe I have not talked to any of my friends about 'it' I guess. I just text to them in words. That didn't pretty helped though. It helped in some sort of ways but, thanks for, well you know who you are.
At times like this, when I feel sad or disappointed, I eat and eat and eat alot. I don't know, I read about this that eating will actually makes you feel better. Thats coz we feel content. And when we feel content, we feel glad, happy. Nope, its not normal eventhough I love food all the time. And I tend to play basketball alot and not feeling exhausted but eventually when I return home I'll be in insomia state.
No, its not healthy.

I really need to talk to her. Eventhough sometimes she don't really listen to what I'm really saying, but it feels relieve to have blurt it out in language I guess.
Definitely I'll call her up one day. Pfft.
So darn bored and my "brother" just done his operation on his right ear. So we're kinda share the same fate. He got no car to go out and I got no car to hop on. And he's only back for a month. Damn. So many things to do, so many places to go.

I want to talk talk talk talk talk to her. xD
Wish me well people! I'm waiting for the Lavender's call. The call. The call.

Feel me, hear me, touch me, listen.
Listen to the shattering glasses. I'm sweeping the glasses already.
I can feel it. Its going away. I can't wait. I'm finally getting you off my mind.
How will I face you next week? Will you be coming? Will I back off? Will I ignore all the things I see in you? How?
Friend. I need to see you. Lets smile together. Your jokes are lame, and you always took fantastic bomb shots from me. You are amazing. Smile!

Yup, I went and asked for vacancy today though. Hmm. Just to earn some incomes and to keep myself busy to forget the tragic ending.
Anyway, just a shoutout. > What are friends for if they are not picking up your calls?! And not returning the calls are not COOL.



Back to the topic people, err, I asked in Sakae and the lady said Sorry we're in for a long-term waiter. Aight I get it lady.
Next stop I went Kinsahi. And here's the thing, that guy told me that their vacancy is full. Why not try asking in The Mines? I was like uhm I'm sorry. Yea, The Mines, KL you could try there. They have a hostel there. OH.
* I am not a Myanmarian,Burmese or an Indonesian. All I want is a vacancy while waiting for my SPM results. * And off I went.



Finally, the last. Lavender. Making it short. She speaks fast action packed mandarin. Superb. I kept apologizing and sorry sorry sorry. She have to speak English to me and that automatically she will assume that I am a Banana.~
No I am not. I can't listen what are you trying to speak. So fast.
Finally she cooled off and uhm I gave her my house phone number instead of my cell's coz you know I'll have missed calls by then and its bad if she's the one calling.
Hopefully its a YES when she calls though.
Worse come to worse I just have to play dull as a sales assistant. Crap.

Shit Happens But I'm Moving On.
For Real.
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself by hurting you.
You Were so much to me.
Now, I must move, to FORGET, maybe one day you'll find a better one.
Though, the period was short, BUT THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES. You will always be SPECIAL to me.

The rules are:
1. You own a blog where you are going to post this to

2. You currently feel bored

3. You won’t skip any question

4. You’re Alive

5. You are going to send this to 5 friends to fill these up

-

Firstly describe the current you in 5 words:
1. Got style! xD
2. Broke.
3. In deep crush.
4. Fairer?! ( Seriously,for once all my relatives were traumatized by me)
5. Lonesome.

5 things you love about life:
1. Heavenly Food!
2. Having "Tan" as my surname.
3. Being the only son of my family of the 3sisters.
4. Love makes the world go round.
5. Cherish.

5 famous people you’d love to meet:
1. Catherine Zeta Jones.
2. Jay Chou.
3. LeBron James.
4. Beyonce Knowles.
5. Maksim Mrvica.

5 movies you love:
1. The Green Mile.
2. The Dark Knight.
3. Coach Carter.
4. Glory Road.
5. Secret.

5 professions you’d love to have:
1. Model.
2. Desinger based in Paris.
3. Wildlife voluntary.
4. A music composer.
5. Astronaut.

5 best authors:
1. I
2. Don't
3. Read
4. Big-time
5. Novels.

5 inspirations:
1. My dad.
2. Usain Bolt.
3. Art.
4. Music instruments.
5. LeBron James.

5 favourite stuff:
1. My laptop.
2. Sony Walkman.
3. Albums.
4. Holding hands.
5. Shoes.

5 things you dislike:
1. LIZARDS!
2. Motor powered mouth.
3. Torn shoes.
4. Maths,Accounts and anything concerns with calculations except (+,-,X,.|.)
5. WANNABES!

5 favourite places:
1. Basketball court.
2. Friend's place.
3. Paris.
4. Venice.
5. My room.

5 women/men you are currently liking:
Men
1. Jay Chou
2. Gaspard Ulliel * he's damn handsome! Better than Ed Cul. *
3. LeBron James.
4. Ashton Kutcher.
5. Justin Timberlake.

Women
1. Claire Danes.
2. Gweneth Paltrow.
3. Beyonce Knowles.
4. Katy Perry.
5. Lin Chi Ling.

5 favourite people to chat with:
1. Shanni
Yunn Teng. She can withstand the talking cock.

5 things you wanna improve more about yourself:
1. Height.
2. Fitness.
3. Awareness.
4. Inreased of IQ.
5. Cut down on cursing.

5 things you would take to a deserted island:
1. Food, lots and lots of food.
2. Friends.
3. Matches,fire supplies.
4. Amplifiers and Mp3s that will last for eternity.
5. Fishing rod.

5 places you want to visit:
1. Venice.
2. Swiss.
3. Paris.
4. Milan.
5. The Big Apple.

5 things you really want:
1. Money that are not too much but just enough for me and my family's lifetime.
2. Graduated.
3. The perfect girlfriend.
4. To be respected.
5. A house and a car.

5 songs that make you cry the most:
1. Its Not Over-Secondhand Serenade.
2. Leaving On A Jet Plane-Jewel
3. Soundtracks from the movie Secret. Just piano.
4. Ain't Got You-Kevin Michael.
5. Away-Enrique Iglesias.

5 most fashionable friends according to you:
1. Lee Lian. Simple.
2. Doreen. Simple yet always attractive.
3. Yean May.


5 people you love the most:
1. Friends.
2. Family.
3. The one girl I truly loved. xD
4. Si Hao & Sue Ling. Only closest cousins!
5. Any one who love me.

5 impossible dreams:
1. Living in a mansion.
2. To be able to stop,reverse time.
3. Reading minds. So effective when you're in a relationship probs!
4. Owning the Lamborghini franchise company.
5. Collection of watches.

5 Dreams in the future:
1. Already something in a Hotel Management industry.
2. Get married and settle down.
3. Driving a Gallardo.
4. Owning at least 2 pets, Golden Retriever and Siberian Husky.
5. To create time machine. Coz Einstein said its not IMPOSSIBLE.

I tag :
SPM leavers.

Maybe I should held the best dressed award or perhaps the best FOOD of the night?
Yup there are somethings to be settled during that night but we managed to settle it to prevent further havoc. Damn.
Oh, talking bout my peeps, they were all like smoking,sizzling, hot hot. xD
Even Kc managed to have come after his tiring flight back from India. Thanks alot.
The girls were like exceptionally prettier on that day while the guys were much cooler than usual. HahS!
Well, there are some where we have never seen them wearing heels in their life while some were just surprised that She is actually wears a dress! Hmph.
As cliche as this may be, I had better let the pictures do the talking.






* its been 11years and WE'RE ARE STILL HERE!

Her crying is the best weapon ever! Why?!
Coz it melted my heart AGAIN as if nothing ever happened.
How ironic it have been.

You. Not you again. Its this time again I'm always suffering like this. Yes I said I'll be moving on. Those were just words. Loving someone for a few years and one day you just say I'm over it, are you that invincible?
Though you have disappointed me alot and alot of times. I do not know whether that is your nature or I just do not know you well. But what else can I ask? I kept my patience. Waiting for you. But you did not, as if I was never there. I just hate where I was anticipated that you're coming, well, I guess now I found my weaknesses. I always have high hopes. Of course, who doesn't. I only get to see you once a week. And thats not almost every week. I know you know. We both know. I don't like this feeling of stranded. Yet, I don't wanna hurt you. I know you don't give a damn on what I am writing or what I have done. What else is in your mind? What else do you want? Hurh. The worse part of my life? Not yet. You even forgotten my Birthday. How could you? Its just too cold. Call me LOA. I don't give a f*ck. Did I ever ever ever forgotten yours? Is it so hard? I bet my life on the line if your friends did not mentioned about it, you will just best forgetten about it. The higher you hope, the higher you fall. Its a cliche almost everyone heard of.
I kept telling myself to wait for you until that major examination is done with. Now you're treating me this way. What.
Then suddenly you give me hope again. You should listen to Katy Perry, Hot N Cold more often. Suits your style. Maybe more than that.
I can't say I hate you. I...
You just break and break and break my heart and I am still there. Stupid? Foolish? Ignorance? Urgh. Friend of mine advised that I should've left her long time ago. Calling me stupid for still being in love with such person. Wants my attention but did not give me attention in return.
Anyway, I'm so into the song Away by Enrique Iglesias.


Damn.

*Got tagged by Sam.*


1. What's your ambition?
= Actually an architect. :)

2. Which is more important to you : Friends/Boyfriend/Girlfriends
= Girlfriend if I had one, friends if the former is not mine.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
= Nope.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
= Hell yeah? To girls not so. xD

5. How many babies do you want?
= 3.

6. What is your goal for this year?
= Its coming to an end nyway. Nxt year? To rebuild my life.

7. Do you believe in eternal love?
= Yes I do. Proof? My parents? xD *dumbass question*

8. Do you want to change your real name?
= Came at first. I mean, wth is Si for? hahS! Not anymore.

9. What feeling do you love the most?
= Being loved.

10. What are your bad habits?
= Hot-head.

11. Is there anything you want to tell people who hate you?
= You suck.

12. Do you cherish every friendship you have?
= Yes I do. Some are, urghh.

13. What does flying mean to you?
= Flapping your wings, if you have one, and uhm supposedly your whole body is lifted off the ground.

14. Who do you love?
= HAIYO! alot la! Call me! ^.<

15. Who do you hate?
= Hmmm. Call me also la. Nobody gets hurt here. Hahs!

16. Describe the person who tagged you in nine words.
= *speechless*.

17. What would you really like to do now?
= Wishing she would just say YES or NO. And to have the guts to say the magic word. Yes me.

18. What will you be in the next ten years?
= Have a family. Like durh? A decade weii.

19. Coffee or Tea?
= Both.

20. What are you wishing for right now?
= Hmm. Wishing she would be mine already. But why? You.

I tag :
LayYin.Alex.Jann.Bev.

I've made. This will sound a little bit of cliche but, you know, I still gotta spit it out. Its all over. SPM is over!
Anyway, I've carried out my plans as planned. That is to get a basketball shoe as soon I've done wearing those old crappy shoes. Took me whole day to find the right size.Damn. Well, size 10 & 1/2 plus the flatness of my foot make my search a whole lot worse. Finally, saviour. Nike from OneSports basketball dealer. Phew. Btw, klang town bridge is the worse place to go. If anyone of you morons have nothing to do there, its much obliged if you're not going there and heed my advice. Which I know many of ya'll have noticed it. Damn. What a day.
Here's my hardwork. Both in searching and in financial. Nike Uptempo Quix.




Bonus feature is that, since I'm so gonna get in love, there's a heart shape on the inside, which shows the softer side of a flagrant basketballer like me! xD