This feeling, so familiar, it come and go. Ah yes, the feeling to start to love again.
I guess I'm all over you. Sometimes I wandered back to the past, promised myself not to be the fool again.
I know you are the one, I just know..... Godamnit, I hope you'll never bring me back to the haunting past. Your smile during that night has melted my heart.

I hereby promise will cherish you. (:

What to wear, what to wear, what to wear.... for PROM ?

I was with a friend. A basketball mate to be exact, he's married, got family on his own, and a company. So we chatted a little bit, catching up and all. See, I just like talking to people who have a lot of experiences in life. Everything they say, it makes you wonder, ponder about the questions they come up with.
He asked me this, put yourself in my shoes,and you think back in life, which part of life did you enjoyed the most? Kindergarten, primary school, secondary and now college. I had my the best time of my life in college he said. "I always wanted to do bungee jumping, go for camps, travel, hitchhike or whatever that is adventurous. But looking at my age now, and you tell people you wanna do all this. You always think more than just twice. I can't do anything now. I'll think of my wife, my kids, my family, my job". That was what he shared to me. Come to think of it, what have I done during the last decade of my life? Study and strive to get A's . Then what next? Work, get your pay day, then what? I'm not discouraging anyone to not study. But, did I live life I asked myself this? Come to think of it, I did not. Sadly.
I go to school, I studied, finished my schooling life. And I'm done. Live life to the fullest, I have not done that yet. I've not done scuba diving, I've certainly have not jumped off a bungee, and not swim with the sharks perhaps. You see, life never takes two, we only live once. Certainly I do not want to live with regrets. So when do you start to live your life? I say, college is still not to late to carry on life.
It's time to start living. (:

How can one fucking fucked your whole family and pretend as if one has not done wrong?
I'm just curious you see. What if one fucked your parents instead of you? You wanna fuck fine, fuck me. lol. What's the family has to do with your fuckings? Putting on a plastic to class acting all cuddled up, sigh. Please. Take a bow. Well, you see, I am no pushover, I do forgive but I never forget. I hold a deep grudge and yes you can count on it. (:
I do not care you, or them, but it is what it is now. As usual I would say, you're just pushing it perhaps?
You must be wondering, the fuck is wrong with this guy after such long incident had taken place? Let me tell you something B I T C H H H H .. you just can't say fuck your parents hard or you, or whoever you feel like fucking because it ain't your day or something, then take it all back and pretended nothing has happened. Uh uh, Oh wait, I forgotten you're that slut that did not even take back those words. Ah yes yes yes. Wow, damn, life's a bitch, so are you, whadda' ya know. =/ You're intelligent bells are ringing now? That took a while.
Everyone is nice. Everyone has patience, but BITCH, patience has its limits. That one up there, sorry to say you ain't got family education. And my dad ain't a faggot. I am not born motherfucker cos if I am, I would already slept with your mom. Plus, I will not die by car/big truck/or bulldozer crushing over me and left the blood juices over. In fact, I will die with a smile on my face, go to heaven, and say Hey bitch, how's hell? Cos there's where you're heading to. I will have my karma and all for typing this cursing you to hell and all. But hey, at least we're even right? . . . Well, maybe not. haha!
I'm very easy going alright. So listen slut, an apology won't solve anything and I already assume you won't apologize either. So, why don't you take a look at this note and tell me who the fuck is at fault here. I mean, wait, though fucks and nut balls I'm writing this bullcrap, you would probably say, who the fuck cares? I fucked your parents and your whole family + you, I've been there done that, who the fuck cares now anyway? haha. You're right you know your just right. You always do seriously. You were always right, never at fault. There are things in the world you can just ignore, I've been ignoring for too long, but thanks to you, you hit the jackpot! Ding ding! Thanks for playing weiyh seriously. You won the grand prize for 1 freaking day to confront me. :) Call moi! I'll be waiting, bitch stare, stare cock, go ahead. lol. That means I know you'd already read this. Pass this around will ya? Thanks.

I was here before. This situation has been a numb to me. The noise, the voice, the commotion. It's not the first neither it will be the last.
How long more can I take this? Dad always asks me to keep my cool. My temper is killing me from inside out. But dad, everyone has a limit. I understand that her condition is that way and I don't blame God or mom. But this must not continue further. I am growing up and people live people die. I asked myself, people die everyday, why don't you? I hate her so much. She has been a shame. Nothing but a pitiful piece of shit. Seriously, I am old enough to act. When shit happens, both of you asked me to lock myself in my room. I used to cry and asked if God ever exist, if HE do exist why is HE doing this? Mom & dad is getting old . I am not a good son neither am I a bad son. Sometimes, I just couldn't take this anymore. Who to share my problems with?
I've tried to talk to counselors but I just couldn't be brave enough. I tried to talk to my friends, I'm afraid they will leave me because of my situation. I'm embarrassed to have this happening to me. I have been living in this way since I was a kid. Home sweet home ae? I fucking hate that phrase so.
These tears, will they stop rolling down my cheeks ever? I told myself I've changed, left the past behind, but past never leave me behind. This shit must not go on.
I need a ear that will not run away from me for am I embarrassing myself.