If you still not notice, I'm always here,
in your Shadows.I'm still waiting, I'll be waiting. Will it be a rejection or acceptance, I don't give a damn. I want
ANSWERS! I want
TRUTH! Its been 3 long years when I first saw you.
If you really care then
SHOW it!
If you really appreciate then
PROVE it!
We are like
STRANGERS to the outside world. Just
ignorance, No
tolerance.
What happened?
Is it me who started it?
Or was it you, who did not play along?
I've given all the attention.
Have you ever thought of that somebody who is always there for you? Watching you?
Praying that he'll grab the attention from you.
That somebody's me.
Annually, the month of November will come and go. Oh look the (fool) is already head over heels about it. Before the clock struck 12 at midnight, he is waiting, wishing he would be the
special one, the first to make her an eventful yet mesmerizing day.Guess what? He eventually did.
He was glad to have seen her so happy.He was glad.
Ironically, on the month of July, where was she? He, the foolish boy was waiting. Hoping the girl of his dreams will actually greet him. The foolish boy thought maybe he asked for too much. He just wants a greeting from her, and that is
something more than enough. Still, no sign of her when the clock struck 12 midnight. No sign day one, nor day two, neither day three. He was sad, really sad. Filled with disappointment and sadness. Day four came and passed like any other days. He is still waiting.Wondering all those things he had done. Were there any wrongs? Day five came, she apologized. The foolish boy was already trying to forget about it. He was yet disappointed again real deep this time. She asked, "are you mad?" The foolish boy did not wanna show his disappointment and so he replied "No, everything is alright. I'm fine. Its just a birthday, everyone forgets my birthday. No big deal." She took it lightly, thinking it was a joke, not a clue or a sign. He did not intent to hurt her, not a bit. At the end of the day, the boy was cloudy all the way. He was unhappy, moody and did not respond. He thought it was a 'give and take situation'. He was wrong; so wrong. He hurt himself instead. What an
idiot. But hold on, she really thought he was alright. *Phew*
Deep down under, his hert was shattered into pieces. So painful that it will never heal. Till now, he keeps tellig himself,"look at yourself, you asked too much, you're obsessed. There is no way she has feelings for you. Why would she? Its only mere 3 years holding on and
SHE KNOWS IT! SHE knew HE had feelings for her ever since they met. Why?!
After all those things he had done, time he had spent, sacrifices he had made, was it less than perfection? It is what he is capable of. She did not understand.
She did not took notice of him. He thought so. Maybe he was never there. Who knows?
All along the foolish boy can only tell himself, "
I choose to love you in silence,
for in silence I find no rejection." That foolish boy too has shedded tears for her.
That foolish boy is
me.
