Listening to: Easier to lie by Aqualung.

I can't provide you Gucci nor Prada or Louis Vuitton. But I promise to cherish every moment with you. That is all I can provide that money can't buy my true feelings for you. It bothers that we might be off the different world, but I will do my best to fulfill your needs as your boyfriend.
Ily.

Listening to: Alice by Avril Lavigne

Now there's this movie, Clash of Titans. I wonder when life takes it's toll and there'll be clash of egos. Well, here I am now. Every men for himself. Every men has ego, that is undeniably true. Totally no doubt about it. But c'mon, it's only one matter but but you made it look like you're such a genius out of nowhere? Hah. I mean I've seen many people in my industry. It is people like you make me sick of everyday in life. While you, you're just, well puny-cowardly man. Who speaks but not act. I don't mean to show that I've changed. Maybe in a certain ways. It's people like you I have to grow smarter socially and beware of human character. Some things, you might just wanna keep it to yourself. I don't think they would wanna listen to your yeppy yeppy. Oh man, I guess this is just when ego meets greater ego. I guess I'm just that way. Seriously, it disgusts me. I don't know, I guess I'm just so much mature mentally because I proudly say I am so much exposed to the world. My chef once told me, some people are born lucky they enjoy what they already have, not what they have not yet to have. Wise wise words chef. I'll give you credits because you're book smart. For now, you might wanna keep certain things to yourself. Don't have to elaborate on things that you already knew, recently. It's just plain ugh.
What are you trying to prove? I guess I know this word, it's called kiasu. Stick up to it.

Terrified by Katherine Mcphee

As some of you might know, I am back home from my internship already. It's about a week now so yeah. I felt really lazy to blog about what's up and about. You can visit my Facebook profile for lots of pictures that I have taken. I certainly have mixed emotions on leaving the hotel and coming back home. Oh well, not everyday you meet really really nice and warm people. People who are not selfish on giving you guidance in every single way. I'm just so touched by their warmness back in the hotel. When you guys come to KL, ring me up. All of you got my number and I don't have any of you guys except for Fendik's. Oh gosh, it felt so good I chatted with Fendik yesterday. All of you should have facebook! Even Kak Suhada hasn't accepted my friend request. ):
People I have contacted these past few days may think I've gone out of my mind. Basically of my outrageous behavior and my "outstanding" spontaneously actions. I guess I just miss you guys. And seriously I think alcohol has given me some effects somehow. I talk a lot of nonsense these days and I can't remember things too well. But I'm so glad everything went so clear. I've been patching up some old wounds and I've been making new wounds as well. Well, you know me. Even though, there's a problem, I will not open up. It's not like I don't want to, I just can't. That's just how it work. I may look like I know nothing but I do know things. You'll be surprised.
For now, I'm so enjoying my life. When anything goes wrong, I'll tell myself that life's short. I'm enjoying it while I can. As long I don't harm anyone or anything. I AM ME. I AM REAL.
I guess that's it for now. I don't wanna emo emo here. Shit has been going around a lot lately. Oh God.

Long gone the lovely memories you left behind, it was surreal, it was sweet. The pain reminds me that the feeling was real. Thank you, goodbye.

Flights in 3 hours to go. It felt so good to be home though for the past 4days. It was fun altogether. Catching up old times with old pals. Priceless. All of us should do that more often, seriously. Ah, haven't enjoyed myself for such long time. Well, 4 weeks left and I'm home. It'll be over before I know it. And by that time, I will not wanna leave those people back there in Langkawi. No time to emo here though. LOL. Anyway, I slept real late yesterday and just came back from Dim Sum. So, I'mma get some rest cos I hate traveling. Damn. Time flies.
Till then, take care everyone. Place your orders of chocs if interested! :DDD

When you tell me that you love me, were those just words, you can't tell you don't need me, and I know that hurts, cos I'm looking at your picture cos its all I got, maybe one day you and me will have one more shot..

Listening to: Derita Merindu by Ahli Fiqir

Here I am, its been my 5th week here in Langkawi island, half way through my internship in Westin Langkawi Resort & Spa. I am now currently in Starbucks, spending already Rm30 for their drinks here. Damn.
I felt refreshed in a way that I finally logged into Facebook. LOL!
I saw June is having helluva fun on her b'day in Hard Rock which is a waste I could not be there. Well, I'll make it up to you June. (:
Oh, did I mention that our hotel gave us angpau? haha! Pretty awesome ae? No its not 10bucks angpau. It's 48bucks! hahaha! Well, hotel kan kaya?
Days gone by and I miss her like crazy! Hmmm. Well, I'll be going home for a few days on CNY. Just can't wait to see her when I get back if time permits. Sigh.
I felt bad that I could not be by her side to comfort her or anything, these few days, she seems to be quite down. Well, I hope everything's going fine for her though. I really do.
Anyway, I'll be working on the 7-3 morning shift tomorrow onwards though. Till then I'll be going home soon enough to celebrate the short CNY. Yes, I do miss everyone there. Even my dog. Life here ain't so bad. Lifestyle here is BAD. If you know what I mean. So many stories to tell, so many stories to be heard. Things changes so quickly that you don't have enough time to adapt. Oh gotch. How many times have I say I misses her so so much? ):
This sucks!

You have to stay strong, you know you have to, and I know you will. You always do. Imy, Ily. Till then take care.

Listening to: Four Kick by Kings of Leon

I have not been giving fuck lately to anyone lately, which means life is really boring because I did not look for trouble. No I have not packed yet but my dad keeps talking and talking and talking as if I ain't coming back. Wtf. Ask this ask that and all that.
I'm just seeing it as a vacation. Long term vacation, that's that and that's it. Lately I just do not understand why I couldn't see some people. You know, you planned something, get excited and it gets cancelled. Ya fuck that.
It felt it was just yesterday you entered college, having all these culture shocks and met lots of scary and outspoken people that freaks me out that turns me into a really anti-social boy for the 1st term. I'm just surprised that wow, is that even normal? Damn. I guess right now, at this point, I miss all of my college friends. Felt its been a long long journey. Really good friends you have met along the way, things we have done together as the whole bunch of us. Man, those were sweet memories. Haven't seen you guys for about 2 weeks and it didn't felt good at all. Godamnit. We need to meet up for real. Please.
fuck emo.

Listening to: I try by Macy Gray

That was quite a show, very entertaining.
Game over, I played by the rule but I guess I was outplayed.
Geez, I'm too sensitive over shit like this.
Oh well, flip the next page and write about it.
Goodbye now.

Listening to: To be with you by Mr Big

When they say swimming is the best sport, you have to agree. And hell yeah, for me.
The whole purpose of swimming is to get toned yo. Forget about the rest, I swim just to lose these stubborn fats and to shape up and not forgetting to grow taller. haha!
Yes I admit that I do google for images of swimmers. Guilty as charged.
Not gay alright, is just for motivation! So I came across these 2 pictures actually which is damn awesome by only swimming!



Dude, that is just huge guns. Moderately huge.

And here's Phelps doing his butterfly stroke. And yes, proven that butterfly stroke defnitely tones your body muscles the fastest. It's tough for beginners to perform this strokes but enough practice is good already.



And yeah, when you swim for long period of time, the most obvious difference is you'll have this upper neck muscles first. Then you will start to notice your triceps. Which is damn awesome!
Train triceps to have bigger biceps remember that!

Listening to: Going Under by Evanesense

Well, I did not have a pleseant wake up call this morning. SIGHH!
And yes, it affected my mood and goddamn I'm screwing every piece of shit since I woke up. The new neighbours are moving in so they have major renovation taking place. And yes, dogs will bark including mine. What next? My niece screaming everytime she passes my room and screaming along with the tv in the living room. Give me a break will ya people please?
I bet its going to be the same damn commotion when I wake up in the morning tomorrow. Besides, did I mention that my new neighbour are going to have 8 motherfucking dogs?! 8 goddamint 8 mofo dogs! Geez, what the fuck is wrong having just 2/3 dogs but 8?! Dad says he's a dog trainer. I thought dog trainer only trains mass amount of dogs, they don't own that mass amount of dogs don't they?
And, I saw this new owner anyway, he was checking and all the other day, I wanted to smile and said hi, but he ignored me like totally. Jackass.
Don't you be so arrogant, you're new in town aight. Arrogant bastard. I would say he's prolly in his mid 40s? Moustache, specky, belly ==. At least he's got a cool dog so I'll give him credits.
Damn, you just brought down the 24years durian tree. It was the legend tree ok. Aihhhh
It's going to smell weiyh since he got 8 dogs and they are all going to poo poo and the hell is going to throw all that poo poos?

Listening to: Love is Gone by David Guetta

You know that feeling is just so not right? It's just not going right. I guess I'm just being paranoid. I don't know seriously. I'm trying my best just to get along and all that. So many things still running around my mind. Saying this that. I guess I just would have to just wait ae?
Hey, thanks for listening. Appreciate it, take care now.

Listening to: Don't Speak by No Doubt

I finally know what I wanted to buy. lol.
It's actually drum roll please! x)

It's actually a GodDamnit Aviators sunglasses! Langkawi is really a very very hot and sunny place, so yeah, it suits my theme! :D





I don't give a damn what mofo branded shit and all. I am just looking for good aviators!

Listening to: Like A Stone by Audioslave

Yup yup, ahhh the Xmas joy... Roasted turkey, macaroni, goddamn good food I don't know. Only my aunts celebrate x'mas every year. For me xmas is a celebration with friends, your loved ones, your girlfriends, families. Time for reunion and all that social thingy on how your relatives/uncle auntie has complained how fat have you grown or how tanned are you since they last saw you and things like that. And yes, not forgetting good beers as well. ;)
I see most of my friends got their wishES list done. x) Some are well far far far close to getting your sight on it or even to *gulp* think of it. I'm not saying people are just greedy, it's just wish list. Put whatever you want as long you behave and Santa knows that. Lol.
So yeah I was out the last week week like err 4 days a week maybe to Aeon? ==
No big deal, I wanted to buy that iPod shuffle that only costs RM99 and with membership only 79! How cool is that?! Well, my Sony Mp3 Walkman basically died on me a few times. *yes that purple thumbdrive-look-alike. * It's been lets see 4 years ae? Dad got me for something. Can't remember. Anyway, I did not buy or ask someone else to buy me a new music tool. Cos, later I found out it was the earphone that failed me. Sigghhh. So yea, I saved my cash, did not spend on the new iPod instead I chose to buy a Philips earphone which is soo soo cool. Saved at least 70bucks.
On the other hand, I came to stop by this particular shop which I think she would love it as a gift. I don't know, I'm just so not me when choosing gifts ya know. And far more, it's a CHRISTMAS GIFT! So yeahh, after spending most of my days there walking around, I think, why not? Probably she likes it. Probably not. When plan A fails you need plan B which plan B means to execute plan A by all means. Haha! Oh well, things didn't went the way I wanted to but Xmas is still long way for me. Out of nowhere, I feel I'm leaving really soon, is like this whole thing is like a long sleep and I wake up one day I find I'm away from here. You know that feeling that just don't feel right at all. Ishhh FML. It's a new thingy for me though, getting gifts for xmas, shopping, the hustle and what not. It's going to be nice I guess. I'll see where the wind blows. Hell no.

When you love something, you set it free right?

Listening to: Bad Romance by Lady GaGa.

According to Shaun, "First year just ended, now what?"
Well, that's basically a good question. All of us, as we know, has been placed in their hotels respectively for their interns. Jeremy, Ben, Kev, and I will be leaving on the 3rd to have a better look on the place, the island and all that. Geez, I'm so so so afraid I put on weight after interns! Gahhhh!
Well at least Jeremy's bringing his weights and I'll be bringing the exercise mat. It will not be that bad ae? No?
I just can't wait for the cheap stuff I'll be bringing home. Weeeeee~~~
Oh the joy of leaving this miserable place. Hell not I care if I suffer in training, I promise myself to enjoy myself there. When things don't go your way, just get a Heineken and get over it. >D

I'm so so so gonna miss yooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu so muchhhhh when you're not around! ):

You don't get something for nothing without giving out your soul.

Year end exam is tomorrow. 3hours of Hospitality Operations. FML.
Yet, I've not finished covering everything. I'm a little worried, I'm a little over confident.
I won't screw this up! (:

All the best to yo DH,DC,DT, BDH 33? lol

*after that kita pergi minum minum dan partayyyyy! xDD*

So there I have it, Westin Langkawi called, I answered, and dang I'm accepted for my industrial training. Mixed emotions I'll say. I'm happy I'm leaving, at the same time I'll miss my homeboys back here. 3months of no balling, 3months of no swimming, 3months of no bah kut teh. Damnit!
I'll make my 3months enjoyable though. Booze all night long yo. haha.
It's unbelievable how time passed. Geez, time flies ae? I'm so going to miss all my college friends. No more hustlin, no more jeng jeng, no more amp square, no more yam cha, no more mah 7, no more 7 down, no more meh hai. Gahhhhh!
I'm leaving on the 3rd of Jan coming back only on the 27th of March. I'm soooooooooooo gooooonnnna miss everyone! I have no idea if I could come back on CNY that I wish I can!
14th Feb eh. haha

So, yes, finals is like less than a week. Cool.
Cheers yo

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I'm break down?
So what if the world just throws me off the edge
my feet run off the ground?

I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound,
Don't care about the pain in front of me,

Cause I'm just trying to be happy.

When you thought things are going your way, just as planned. What if it comes to a stop out of nowhere and you really saw that coming?

Never thought I would encounter this breathing difficulty, again. I thought it has just fade as I grow older. As I was playing basketball, I, said to myself "Oh, what the hell is going on?" I just felt hard to breathe , is like your heart is punctured or something. I ignored, continued played, then there it is again. This time I stopped. Putting my hands on my knees, giving myself time to catch air. I have to breathe and breathe and keep breathing. I thought, maybe it was the concussion, then I remember not getting hit by anyone or I hit anyone. It just wham after a jump shot. The feeling is like, you're stuck underwater, you're trying to rise to get air, but you can't. Yes, it was that awful. I did my cardio and I guess that wasn't the problem either.
This time around, seek advice. I guess I just pushed myself too hard. It was quite an experience. Forgettable one indeed.

Reach for the marker instead of the blade. Always remember of your loved ones.

LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT!

I've done my part, have you?