I'm Like This, Life's Like That

All I can.

2010-04-14T02:44:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Easier to lie by Aqualung.

I can't provide you Gucci nor Prada or Louis Vuitton. But I promise to cherish every moment with you. That is all I can provide that money can't buy my true feelings for you. It bothers that we might be off the different world, but I will do my best to fulfill your needs as your boyfriend.
Ily.

You think you're great. You're not.

2010-04-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Alice by Avril Lavigne

Now there's this movie, Clash of Titans. I wonder when life takes it's toll and there'll be clash of egos. Well, here I am now. Every men for himself. Every men has ego, that is undeniably true. Totally no doubt about it. But c'mon, it's only one matter but but you made it look like you're such a genius out of nowhere? Hah. I mean I've seen many people in my industry. It is people like you make me sick of everyday in life. While you, you're just, well puny-cowardly man. Who speaks but not act. I don't mean to show that I've changed. Maybe in a certain ways. It's people like you I have to grow smarter socially and beware of human character. Some things, you might just wanna keep it to yourself. I don't think they would wanna listen to your yeppy yeppy. Oh man, I guess this is just when ego meets greater ego. I guess I'm just that way. Seriously, it disgusts me. I don't know, I guess I'm just so much mature mentally because I proudly say I am so much exposed to the world. My chef once told me, some people are born lucky they enjoy what they already have, not what they have not yet to have. Wise wise words chef. I'll give you credits because you're book smart. For now, you might wanna keep certain things to yourself. Don't have to elaborate on things that you already knew, recently. It's just plain ugh.
What are you trying to prove? I guess I know this word, it's called kiasu. Stick up to it.

Different Feeling.

2010-03-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

Terrified by Katherine Mcphee

As some of you might know, I am back home from my internship already. It's about a week now so yeah. I felt really lazy to blog about what's up and about. You can visit my Facebook profile for lots of pictures that I have taken. I certainly have mixed emotions on leaving the hotel and coming back home. Oh well, not everyday you meet really really nice and warm people. People who are not selfish on giving you guidance in every single way. I'm just so touched by their warmness back in the hotel. When you guys come to KL, ring me up. All of you got my number and I don't have any of you guys except for Fendik's. Oh gosh, it felt so good I chatted with Fendik yesterday. All of you should have facebook! Even Kak Suhada hasn't accepted my friend request. ):
People I have contacted these past few days may think I've gone out of my mind. Basically of my outrageous behavior and my "outstanding" spontaneously actions. I guess I just miss you guys. And seriously I think alcohol has given me some effects somehow. I talk a lot of nonsense these days and I can't remember things too well. But I'm so glad everything went so clear. I've been patching up some old wounds and I've been making new wounds as well. Well, you know me. Even though, there's a problem, I will not open up. It's not like I don't want to, I just can't. That's just how it work. I may look like I know nothing but I do know things. You'll be surprised.
For now, I'm so enjoying my life. When anything goes wrong, I'll tell myself that life's short. I'm enjoying it while I can. As long I don't harm anyone or anything. I AM ME. I AM REAL.
I guess that's it for now. I don't wanna emo emo here. Shit has been going around a lot lately. Oh God.

Long gone the lovely memories you left behind, it was surreal, it was sweet. The pain reminds me that the feeling was real. Thank you, goodbye.

Fly shortly.

2010-02-17T10:06:00.002+08:00

Flights in 3 hours to go. It felt so good to be home though for the past 4days. It was fun altogether. Catching up old times with old pals. Priceless. All of us should do that more often, seriously. Ah, haven't enjoyed myself for such long time. Well, 4 weeks left and I'm home. It'll be over before I know it. And by that time, I will not wanna leave those people back there in Langkawi. No time to emo here though. LOL. Anyway, I slept real late yesterday and just came back from Dim Sum. So, I'mma get some rest cos I hate traveling. Damn. Time flies.
Till then, take care everyone. Place your orders of chocs if interested! :DDD

2010-02-14T18:03:00.003+08:00

When you tell me that you love me, were those just words, you can't tell you don't need me, and I know that hurts, cos I'm looking at your picture cos its all I got, maybe one day you and me will have one more shot..

Quickie.

2010-02-07T18:45:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Derita Merindu by Ahli Fiqir

Here I am, its been my 5th week here in Langkawi island, half way through my internship in Westin Langkawi Resort & Spa. I am now currently in Starbucks, spending already Rm30 for their drinks here. Damn.
I felt refreshed in a way that I finally logged into Facebook. LOL!
I saw June is having helluva fun on her b'day in Hard Rock which is a waste I could not be there. Well, I'll make it up to you June. (:
Oh, did I mention that our hotel gave us angpau? haha! Pretty awesome ae? No its not 10bucks angpau. It's 48bucks! hahaha! Well, hotel kan kaya?
Days gone by and I miss her like crazy! Hmmm. Well, I'll be going home for a few days on CNY. Just can't wait to see her when I get back if time permits. Sigh.
I felt bad that I could not be by her side to comfort her or anything, these few days, she seems to be quite down. Well, I hope everything's going fine for her though. I really do.
Anyway, I'll be working on the 7-3 morning shift tomorrow onwards though. Till then I'll be going home soon enough to celebrate the short CNY. Yes, I do miss everyone there. Even my dog. Life here ain't so bad. Lifestyle here is BAD. If you know what I mean. So many stories to tell, so many stories to be heard. Things changes so quickly that you don't have enough time to adapt. Oh gotch. How many times have I say I misses her so so much? ):
This sucks!

You have to stay strong, you know you have to, and I know you will. You always do. Imy, Ily. Till then take care.

Let the wind take you away.

2009-12-26T20:49:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Four Kick by Kings of Leon

I have not been giving fuck lately to anyone lately, which means life is really boring because I did not look for trouble. No I have not packed yet but my dad keeps talking and talking and talking as if I ain't coming back. Wtf. Ask this ask that and all that.
I'm just seeing it as a vacation. Long term vacation, that's that and that's it. Lately I just do not understand why I couldn't see some people. You know, you planned something, get excited and it gets cancelled. Ya fuck that.
It felt it was just yesterday you entered college, having all these culture shocks and met lots of scary and outspoken people that freaks me out that turns me into a really anti-social boy for the 1st term. I'm just surprised that wow, is that even normal? Damn. I guess right now, at this point, I miss all of my college friends. Felt its been a long long journey. Really good friends you have met along the way, things we have done together as the whole bunch of us. Man, those were sweet memories. Haven't seen you guys for about 2 weeks and it didn't felt good at all. Godamnit. We need to meet up for real. Please.
fuck emo.

I'm no longer here.

2009-12-21T00:39:00.002+08:00

Listening to: I try by Macy Gray

That was quite a show, very entertaining.
Game over, I played by the rule but I guess I was outplayed.
Geez, I'm too sensitive over shit like this.
Oh well, flip the next page and write about it.
Goodbye now.

I Love You, man.

2009-12-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

Listening to: To be with you by Mr Big

When they say swimming is the best sport, you have to agree. And hell yeah, for me.
The whole purpose of swimming is to get toned yo. Forget about the rest, I swim just to lose these stubborn fats and to shape up and not forgetting to grow taller. haha!
Yes I admit that I do google for images of swimmers. Guilty as charged.
Not gay alright, is just for motivation! So I came across these 2 pictures actually which is damn awesome by only swimming!

Dude, that is just huge guns. Moderately huge.

And here's Phelps doing his butterfly stroke. And yes, proven that butterfly stroke defnitely tones your body muscles the fastest. It's tough for beginners to perform this strokes but enough practice is good already.

And yeah, when you swim for long period of time, the most obvious difference is you'll have this upper neck muscles first. Then you will start to notice your triceps. Which is damn awesome!
Train triceps to have bigger biceps remember that!

Get A Hold of it, would ya?

2009-12-16T16:59:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Going Under by Evanesense

Well, I did not have a pleseant wake up call this morning. SIGHH!
And yes, it affected my mood and goddamn I'm screwing every piece of shit since I woke up. The new neighbours are moving in so they have major renovation taking place. And yes, dogs will bark including mine. What next? My niece screaming everytime she passes my room and screaming along with the tv in the living room. Give me a break will ya people please?
I bet its going to be the same damn commotion when I wake up in the morning tomorrow. Besides, did I mention that my new neighbour are going to have 8 motherfucking dogs?! 8 goddamint 8 mofo dogs! Geez, what the fuck is wrong having just 2/3 dogs but 8?! Dad says he's a dog trainer. I thought dog trainer only trains mass amount of dogs, they don't own that mass amount of dogs don't they?
And, I saw this new owner anyway, he was checking and all the other day, I wanted to smile and said hi, but he ignored me like totally. Jackass.
Don't you be so arrogant, you're new in town aight. Arrogant bastard. I would say he's prolly in his mid 40s? Moustache, specky, belly ==. At least he's got a cool dog so I'll give him credits.
Damn, you just brought down the 24years durian tree. It was the legend tree ok. Aihhhh
It's going to smell weiyh since he got 8 dogs and they are all going to poo poo and the hell is going to throw all that poo poos?

I will be all that you want.

2009-12-15T22:52:00.004+08:00

Listening to: Love is Gone by David Guetta

You know that feeling is just so not right? It's just not going right. I guess I'm just being paranoid. I don't know seriously. I'm trying my best just to get along and all that. So many things still running around my mind. Saying this that. I guess I just would have to just wait ae?
Hey, thanks for listening. Appreciate it, take care now.

One more thing

2009-12-14T22:58:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Don't Speak by No Doubt

I finally know what I wanted to buy. lol.
It's actually drum roll please! x)

It's actually a GodDamnit Aviators sunglasses! Langkawi is really a very very hot and sunny place, so yeah, it suits my theme! :D

I don't give a damn what mofo branded shit and all. I am just looking for good aviators!

Xmas Joy oh?

2009-12-14T20:23:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Like A Stone by Audioslave

Yup yup, ahhh the Xmas joy... Roasted turkey, macaroni, goddamn good food I don't know. Only my aunts celebrate x'mas every year. For me xmas is a celebration with friends, your loved ones, your girlfriends, families. Time for reunion and all that social thingy on how your relatives/uncle auntie has complained how fat have you grown or how tanned are you since they last saw you and things like that. And yes, not forgetting good beers as well. ;)
I see most of my friends got their wishES list done. x) Some are well far far far close to getting your sight on it or even to *gulp* think of it. I'm not saying people are just greedy, it's just wish list. Put whatever you want as long you behave and Santa knows that. Lol.
So yeah I was out the last week week like err 4 days a week maybe to Aeon? ==
No big deal, I wanted to buy that iPod shuffle that only costs RM99 and with membership only 79! How cool is that?! Well, my Sony Mp3 Walkman basically died on me a few times. *yes that purple thumbdrive-look-alike. * It's been lets see 4 years ae? Dad got me for something. Can't remember. Anyway, I did not buy or ask someone else to buy me a new music tool. Cos, later I found out it was the earphone that failed me. Sigghhh. So yea, I saved my cash, did not spend on the new iPod instead I chose to buy a Philips earphone which is soo soo cool. Saved at least 70bucks.
On the other hand, I came to stop by this particular shop which I think she would love it as a gift. I don't know, I'm just so not me when choosing gifts ya know. And far more, it's a CHRISTMAS GIFT! So yeahh, after spending most of my days there walking around, I think, why not? Probably she likes it. Probably not. When plan A fails you need plan B which plan B means to execute plan A by all means. Haha! Oh well, things didn't went the way I wanted to but Xmas is still long way for me. Out of nowhere, I feel I'm leaving really soon, is like this whole thing is like a long sleep and I wake up one day I find I'm away from here. You know that feeling that just don't feel right at all. Ishhh FML. It's a new thingy for me though, getting gifts for xmas, shopping, the hustle and what not. It's going to be nice I guess. I'll see where the wind blows. Hell no.

When you love something, you set it free right?

Seeing towards.

2009-12-11T22:39:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Bad Romance by Lady GaGa.

According to Shaun, "First year just ended, now what?"
Well, that's basically a good question. All of us, as we know, has been placed in their hotels respectively for their interns. Jeremy, Ben, Kev, and I will be leaving on the 3rd to have a better look on the place, the island and all that. Geez, I'm so so so afraid I put on weight after interns! Gahhhh!
Well at least Jeremy's bringing his weights and I'll be bringing the exercise mat. It will not be that bad ae? No?
I just can't wait for the cheap stuff I'll be bringing home. Weeeeee~~~
Oh the joy of leaving this miserable place. Hell not I care if I suffer in training, I promise myself to enjoy myself there. When things don't go your way, just get a Heineken and get over it. >D

I'm so so so gonna miss yooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu so muchhhhh when you're not around! ):

2009-12-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

You don't get something for nothing without giving out your soul.

Year end exam is tomorrow. 3hours of Hospitality Operations. FML.
Yet, I've not finished covering everything. I'm a little worried, I'm a little over confident.
I won't screw this up! (:

All the best to yo DH,DC,DT, BDH 33? lol

*after that kita pergi minum minum dan partayyyyy! xDD*

Accepted.

2009-12-02T18:19:00.003+08:00

So there I have it, Westin Langkawi called, I answered, and dang I'm accepted for my industrial training. Mixed emotions I'll say. I'm happy I'm leaving, at the same time I'll miss my homeboys back here. 3months of no balling, 3months of no swimming, 3months of no bah kut teh. Damnit!
I'll make my 3months enjoyable though. Booze all night long yo. haha.
It's unbelievable how time passed. Geez, time flies ae? I'm so going to miss all my college friends. No more hustlin, no more jeng jeng, no more amp square, no more yam cha, no more mah 7, no more 7 down, no more meh hai. Gahhhhh!
I'm leaving on the 3rd of Jan coming back only on the 27th of March. I'm soooooooooooo gooooonnnna miss everyone! I have no idea if I could come back on CNY that I wish I can!
14th Feb eh. haha

So, yes, finals is like less than a week. Cool.
Cheers yo

I'm just trying to be happy.

2009-12-01T00:02:00.003+08:00

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I'm break down?
So what if the world just throws me off the edge
my feet run off the ground?

I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound,
Don't care about the pain in front of me,

Cause I'm just trying to be happy.

I got soul but I'm not a soldier.

2009-11-29T16:15:00.003+08:00

When you thought things are going your way, just as planned. What if it comes to a stop out of nowhere and you really saw that coming?

Skips A Beat.

2009-11-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

Never thought I would encounter this breathing difficulty, again. I thought it has just fade as I grow older. As I was playing basketball, I, said to myself "Oh, what the hell is going on?" I just felt hard to breathe , is like your heart is punctured or something. I ignored, continued played, then there it is again. This time I stopped. Putting my hands on my knees, giving myself time to catch air. I have to breathe and breathe and keep breathing. I thought, maybe it was the concussion, then I remember not getting hit by anyone or I hit anyone. It just wham after a jump shot. The feeling is like, you're stuck underwater, you're trying to rise to get air, but you can't. Yes, it was that awful. I did my cardio and I guess that wasn't the problem either.
This time around, seek advice. I guess I just pushed myself too hard. It was quite an experience. Forgettable one indeed.

To Write Love on Her Arms

2009-11-13T20:27:00.002+08:00

Reach for the marker instead of the blade. Always remember of your loved ones.

LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT!

I've done my part, have you?

What if I'm right?

2009-11-13T20:17:00.002+08:00

What if I know you're just like her?
What if I know you just toy me?
What if I'm just joke?
What if I'm a fool all these while?

What if I'm right? I cannot take these mind games anymore. Just say it off and I'll disappear.

Supposedly Surprised.

2009-11-10T23:23:00.008+08:00

Well ya we had a very small gathering on the last saturday night amongst us, the secondary buddies. Supposedly a surprise birthday for Han Wei & Eng Wei? haha! How come I wasn't informed about this? Things went pretty well that night. Almost everyone that I last contact with showed up, Wan Xian, Ying, Jo, Hui San, Keong, Kelly and alot lahh. hahaha! We catched up a little bit, life is still a bitch lahh yea.
So yeah, my face gets red when I'm under the influence of alchohol. Han Wei popped the white wine cos we had cheese cake for him, so yeah, I drink wine and I had like 5,6 cups? hahaha! Sorry lahh no glass. My face was like a lobster, but it was all good. I don't get drunk easily. And I drove home safely. *wink.

Still sober.

Ying and my most trustworthy friend Lee Lian.

Family portrait. LOL! Xian, Jo and Hock. Classmates 07-08.

Xian and I.

Now you see how red my face is. Tun sean and I.

Ying and Xian. BFFs.

Cheers babe (:

What I want?

2009-11-07T01:33:00.001+08:00

I am lustful I am angst, I am envy. I am greed over you.

2009-11-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

I'm just trying these new skins. I know butterflies and all that, just give me time. Laugh out loud .

(:

Behind the scenes, prom.

2009-11-02T17:18:00.011+08:00

Go behind the scenes, unlock the myth. The question that keeps running in every men's head. Why women take so long to dress up? Now, let's go behind the scenes yah. (:

Men, now we know why. (:

The feel to love, again.

2009-10-31T17:39:00.002+08:00

This feeling, so familiar, it come and go. Ah yes, the feeling to start to love again.
I guess I'm all over you. Sometimes I wandered back to the past, promised myself not to be the fool again.
I know you are the one, I just know..... Godamnit, I hope you'll never bring me back to the haunting past. Your smile during that night has melted my heart.

I hereby promise will cherish you. (:

2009-10-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

What to wear, what to wear, what to wear.... for PROM ?

Precious Thoughts.

2009-10-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

I was with a friend. A basketball mate to be exact, he's married, got family on his own, and a company. So we chatted a little bit, catching up and all. See, I just like talking to people who have a lot of experiences in life. Everything they say, it makes you wonder, ponder about the questions they come up with.
He asked me this, put yourself in my shoes,and you think back in life, which part of life did you enjoyed the most? Kindergarten, primary school, secondary and now college. I had my the best time of my life in college he said. "I always wanted to do bungee jumping, go for camps, travel, hitchhike or whatever that is adventurous. But looking at my age now, and you tell people you wanna do all this. You always think more than just twice. I can't do anything now. I'll think of my wife, my kids, my family, my job". That was what he shared to me. Come to think of it, what have I done during the last decade of my life? Study and strive to get A's . Then what next? Work, get your pay day, then what? I'm not discouraging anyone to not study. But, did I live life I asked myself this? Come to think of it, I did not. Sadly.
I go to school, I studied, finished my schooling life. And I'm done. Live life to the fullest, I have not done that yet. I've not done scuba diving, I've certainly have not jumped off a bungee, and not swim with the sharks perhaps. You see, life never takes two, we only live once. Certainly I do not want to live with regrets. So when do you start to live your life? I say, college is still not to late to carry on life.
It's time to start living. (:

That ain't innocent .

2009-10-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

How can one fucking fucked your whole family and pretend as if one has not done wrong?
I'm just curious you see. What if one fucked your parents instead of you? You wanna fuck fine, fuck me. lol. What's the family has to do with your fuckings? Putting on a plastic to class acting all cuddled up, sigh. Please. Take a bow. Well, you see, I am no pushover, I do forgive but I never forget. I hold a deep grudge and yes you can count on it. (:
I do not care you, or them, but it is what it is now. As usual I would say, you're just pushing it perhaps?
You must be wondering, the fuck is wrong with this guy after such long incident had taken place? Let me tell you something B I T C H H H H .. you just can't say fuck your parents hard or you, or whoever you feel like fucking because it ain't your day or something, then take it all back and pretended nothing has happened. Uh uh, Oh wait, I forgotten you're that slut that did not even take back those words. Ah yes yes yes. Wow, damn, life's a bitch, so are you, whadda' ya know. =/ You're intelligent bells are ringing now? That took a while.
Everyone is nice. Everyone has patience, but BITCH, patience has its limits. That one up there, sorry to say you ain't got family education. And my dad ain't a faggot. I am not born motherfucker cos if I am, I would already slept with your mom. Plus, I will not die by car/big truck/or bulldozer crushing over me and left the blood juices over. In fact, I will die with a smile on my face, go to heaven, and say Hey bitch, how's hell? Cos there's where you're heading to. I will have my karma and all for typing this cursing you to hell and all. But hey, at least we're even right? . . . Well, maybe not. haha!
I'm very easy going alright. So listen slut, an apology won't solve anything and I already assume you won't apologize either. So, why don't you take a look at this note and tell me who the fuck is at fault here. I mean, wait, though fucks and nut balls I'm writing this bullcrap, you would probably say, who the fuck cares? I fucked your parents and your whole family + you, I've been there done that, who the fuck cares now anyway? haha. You're right you know your just right. You always do seriously. You were always right, never at fault. There are things in the world you can just ignore, I've been ignoring for too long, but thanks to you, you hit the jackpot! Ding ding! Thanks for playing weiyh seriously. You won the grand prize for 1 freaking day to confront me. :) Call moi! I'll be waiting, bitch stare, stare cock, go ahead. lol. That means I know you'd already read this. Pass this around will ya? Thanks.

FML

2009-10-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

I was here before. This situation has been a numb to me. The noise, the voice, the commotion. It's not the first neither it will be the last.
How long more can I take this? Dad always asks me to keep my cool. My temper is killing me from inside out. But dad, everyone has a limit. I understand that her condition is that way and I don't blame God or mom. But this must not continue further. I am growing up and people live people die. I asked myself, people die everyday, why don't you? I hate her so much. She has been a shame. Nothing but a pitiful piece of shit. Seriously, I am old enough to act. When shit happens, both of you asked me to lock myself in my room. I used to cry and asked if God ever exist, if HE do exist why is HE doing this? Mom & dad is getting old . I am not a good son neither am I a bad son. Sometimes, I just couldn't take this anymore. Who to share my problems with?
I've tried to talk to counselors but I just couldn't be brave enough. I tried to talk to my friends, I'm afraid they will leave me because of my situation. I'm embarrassed to have this happening to me. I have been living in this way since I was a kid. Home sweet home ae? I fucking hate that phrase so.
These tears, will they stop rolling down my cheeks ever? I told myself I've changed, left the past behind, but past never leave me behind. This shit must not go on.
I need a ear that will not run away from me for am I embarrassing myself.

Kitchen Orgy.

2009-09-29T22:28:00.010+08:00

I'm back to college. Resuming my 3rd term. Which is also the 1st year end then after that I'm off to industrial training.
So today in kitchen, we prepared mornay crabcakes, yorkshire pudding & roasted beef. Few techniques learnt, a new day, a new knowledge. I volunteered to actually remove the fats from the beef and actually asking Esther to "orgy" the beef. LOL!
Quite a good teamwork actually since she got the brains when I can offer some strength to actually also "orgy" the meat.
Okay. This is my first time handling beef and also actually sniffed the meat and all. Ughhh. Well, I don't take beef so I do not know. (:
The angels were tempting me with the beef and all. Nope. It don't work on me. hahaha!

Yes, I volunteered. Good thing I did! Learn something about it. The fats are actually more stubborn than me.

The virgin. Esther tied it so "tight" and called it the virgin. *blood*.

Green peas to be blanched.

Our hands were bloody bloody after all those trussing. Gruesome.

Yorkshire pudding. Quite sad lah since I cannot take beef, I have to eat this only.

The end product ready to be served. Mornay crabcakes.

Main course, Beef, yorkshire pudding, carrots, green peas to be served, gueridon service.

Bae Yong Joon stripped!

2009-09-27T17:35:00.005+08:00

This is one killer bod. Totally an art. I was shocked when I found out this body belongs to the "soft look of Bae Yong Joon." Maybe you know him from the Korean hit series Winter Sonata.

The puzzle, the picture. They don't come together don't they.

2009-09-27T17:25:00.002+08:00

College resumes tomorrow as this is the final term for Year1. Approaching to industrial training very soon as no Chinese New Year for me. Sigh. Wishing DH33 all the best. Though the current Group2 isn't what I dreamed of. But 10 of us will still bring the house down. Though I will miss you lots Kah Wen. I wish you all the best in your near future. No matter where you go, what you do. You were always part of us in Group2 Dh33. See you soon.

Finally.

2009-09-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

Finally. My keyboard is fixed. I am now able to blog

Pumpkin soup,Chicken Chasseur,Black Forest.

2009-08-27T21:10:00.010+08:00

Some gr@phics m@y cont@in violence or gore. Viewers discretion is @dvised.

Look @t the size of th@t d@mn mushroom!

Squeeky cle@n @fter the m@ss murder.

S@uteing it for now. Not cooked yet JEREMY!!

Pumpkin soup to be served! Esther's @rt~~

Fine chopped p@rsley. Into love sh@pe. Wow. Someone's in love.

The end product of the whole G2. @wesome dishes.

Fin@l touch to be served.

@nd fin@lly, desserts, Bl@ck Forest. :)

Voil@. Goodbye Chef Loke. Th@nks for everything. :)

Black Forest cake

2009-08-27T20:54:00.005+08:00

Firstly, p@rdon for I h@ve to use the @ inste@d of A coz the keybo@rd's broken.
So Yes, for the fin@l week of kitchen pr@ctic@ls, we m@de Bl@ck forest c@ke in P@stry cl@ss. :)
@s I h@ve promised some of my friends to b@ke for the b'd@y, I guess the Bl@ck forest h@s to be the one bec@use I @m running out of time!
I kept wondering why w@s Bl@ck forest is expensive @t the m@rket. NOW, I know why.
Mise en pl@ce is done.

Techniques @re the ones th@t killed Jeremy & I.

Yes Jeremy I know. We're @lmost done. Fin@lly. My h@nds @re cr@mping @s well.

Not long @fter, r@ge took over us. We sped up no m@tter how p@inful our @rms hurts!

The end result, with the @ddition of choco powder.

*the following shots of Bl@ck Forest c@ke h@s not been t@ken due to short@ge of time*

My love.

2009-08-23T21:47:00.009+08:00

Need me to define how fun are they?

2009-08-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

SORRY FOR ABONDONING MY BLOG FOR SOMETIME SAM!

2009-08-01T13:34:00.002+08:00

Thanks alot Chef Loke for chatting and for your guidance. Definitely, it will prepare me for things to come in life. Conversations was priceless. Thank you Sir!

The truth hurts, lies are worse.

2009-08-01T11:00:00.002+08:00

Everyone has a choice. There is no such thing as no choice. You chose not to tell, you chose to disclose from everyone of us. You chose this, you chose that. That is simply already a choice. You wanna play, so do we, you wanna win, so do we! What brings you the guts to tell me now? Will the one word, five letters makes any difference? Its your final year, so are we. Every men for himself. Funny. How this turns out to be such irony ae? Its better to not disclose rather than seeing from our naked eyes. What is the meaning of this? It isn't about me now. Think of our friends who improved rapidly just for this. Luckily, he does not have to see from his own eyes, hearing itself will already shatter him. I don't know. You made the choice of not telling us. Its not the choice you've chose to play. NO. You did not tell us the truth. That sucks bad. I have known you more than a decade now. This is how you tell me the truth? By seeing from myself? Well, I'm impressed that you kept this well though. I do not know what for, but you should just tell us. Any of us. Not the one you have told. Think back, don't you think its pointless to tell Nich? Like what, is he playing? Sigh. This sucks man. You do not know how painful it was last night and this morning. Just to think of it, just makes me mad. I mean come ON!
Sigh. Where did you put your senses at that point of time?! Geez man. And you are an intelligent student. Sigh. It just don't mix things up man. I do not know.
It just don't make sense. I don't get it. Why.

I AM SO F-U-C-K-E-D U-P!!!!

Poisson saute a la meuniere

2009-07-16T23:26:00.010+08:00

Don't worry guys, its not poison/racun. Its fish. Again, its Chef Loke's lesson. This time, we Group 2 DH33, rocked the whole kitchen. Everything was excellent I would say. Coz its different in a way that we are cooking for guests the first time. I am the aboyeur. And guys, sorry for the screaming and rushing. Chef Loke influenced me to do it! Seriously!
But everyone of us did a very good job. Preparing the dishes on time and always have that creativity touch of it. Everyone's appetizer was creative in any way. Sorry if I offended anyone for not choosing their piece. But you guys should try being aboyeur. Its really fun and challenging. Oh, and my hand was fishy for 2 damn days. xD. It was hell of experience. Loved that day so much.

Kah Wen the first victim to victimized the fish. She was mumbling in mandarin and complaining coz the fish was cold, fishy and disgusting. For me, I just can't wait to get my hands dirrttty!

Voila, there you have it, fish fillet. :)

There's a whole lot of fish juices. Damn it smelled good. :)

Meet Seabass and I. xD

Now meet Sole.

Esther's starter and Chef Loke's seabass~~.
All ready to be served.

Bon apetit people!

Trivia

2009-07-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

How do you park this way? :)

Sweetness!

2009-07-16T22:57:00.006+08:00

Yes everyone. Back to college again. Kitchen practicals to be exact. My favourite. :)
Started off with pastry with Chef Loke. Damn I tell you, Chef Loke is the coolest guy I've met other than Mr Anthony. He won't get angry, he won't get stress, when he sees you stress, he will just say, CHILL LA CHILL. WHY SO STRESS? then laughed. Cool ae? Coz usually, in kitchen, the Chef will just scream at you and rush you. So for this case, he is damn COOL. And he even said he will bring us to drink one day. Illegal drinks or legal drinks sir?

We did tart alsasienne & creme caramel. Ya, guess again, Pastry classes also was with Chef Loke. Awesome guy.

That's my garnishing. Oh and by the way, I did all those pastry by myself. Damn. Washing, peeling apples, mixing. Its better la, coz the Queen got "court case".

... to be continued.

2009-07-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

Pastry and kitchen pictures will be uploaded soon. Stay tuned. :)

Memorable Eighteenth Pt2

2009-07-11T00:59:00.010+08:00

As everyone can see, I wasn't preparing for this. I taken off my contact lenses and with no wax at all. Definitely I look crappy. :/
Well, I thought, "oh its the time of the year again, makan makan . " Then poof you're a year older already. I wanna thank Sam for making the change. Though my classmates were the first to have done it throughout my whole life, this whole thing you have planned, I fell for it OK. LOL!
Besides Sam, the whole "acting crew" was kinda awesome too. KC was part of the whole crew at the whole time! Bloody. Then some came up with having dinner with their grandpa and all. Damn. While the others, hah, really caught me off guard. Credits to everyone. Love you guys man. Even Terinder came. :) Thank you all. Seriously. Its the best day of all birthdays. It was truly amazing. I'm just moved by what everyone have done for me. The initiatives to come and all. Priceless.

All the hardships we have been through,all of you are still with me. Here I am, saying I will never forget this day for as long as I live. You have my word.

xoxo The End xoxo

2009-07-09T00:15:00.005+08:00

Will be updated soon.
Thank you all. It was just so touching.

Memorable Eighteenth

2009-07-08T23:43:00.016+08:00

.. So speechless. If by any chances I can capture scenes and moments, I will say now.
College pals were so so . Oh man, I'm just so speechless as no one has ever done this before. Di Wei, Ee Laine, Wai Yee, Esther, Kevin, Vick, Jeremy, Ben and Jun Yan. Hah, I'm so blessed to have met pals like you. Oh man, Gloria Jeans, cake from Zen, and not forgetting the "mafia theme". Damn, saying it now gives me tears. You guys really made my 18th Birthday memorable. The best gift of all is friendship. Now I am no more alone in the wild world. I am one. We are one. Thank you. Thank you all so much. And hey, I wasn't sad in Gloria Jeans, I was so touched by what you guys have done for me. Never in my life I felt this way. Thanks again.
Lots of candid shots were taken. Words just couldn't express how deeply moved by everyone of you. :)

Di Wei & Kevin

Heroes and Heroines

Ee Laine, Di Wei, Wai Yee, Esther

xoxo The End xoxo

2009-07-06T18:57:00.001+08:00

I am looking forward to my theatrical debut on my Moral Studies!

German Influence

2009-07-05T01:57:00.005+08:00

My sis and bro in law brought me to Puchong to have dinner with them. That place was called Stadt. It serves good German cuisine. My first time there though. Never had German cuisine before in my life, so I said why not. As I'd remember in class, German's famous cuisine is sausages. And something that looks really like a poop. No offence Europeans, I love Germany. Good country.
The ambience of that restaurant was uhm too dark. I mean it should be dark for dining and all but its just way too dark. The services aren't that good coz I only see 4 waiters for at least 24 tables? They also serve imported beers, countries as Germany itself, Belgium and even Sweden. Their specialty courses there are mainly pork and beef. They skipped beef because I don't eat them, so pork was mainly the dishes we had. I asked myself even the chefs remove the smell of pork, why can't Bah Kut Teh remove the stinkiness of pork? I give 4 out of 5 diamonds for the dishes. :) They should be on Michelin guide man.
As for the beverages, my sis's mocktail ain't that mind blowing. Its called Chocolate Orgasm. Damn it sounds SO SO wrong to me. As for me, I treated myself a Heineken as for my bro in law he ordered Warsteiner beer. I should have that. It tasted so much smoother and light compared to Heineken. But I love Heineken though. Its really really good.
And I still remember what Miss Jasmine told me, my lecturer of F&B, She said from now onwards any cuisines you have, make a habit of taking pictures of them. Rate them from the presentation, taste and creativity. Well I did. :) Good student. xD

Its too damn dark. Without flash you see nothing. Its really very very dark. LOL.

Told you so

2009-07-04T12:51:00.002+08:00

I warned you. You think I was joking. There goes your "yep yep yep". Pathetic. Your sense of humor is laughing at you now. Who's got the last laugh? Hmm. Told you so.
The other one are just so desperate to get your ass whopped. Going all out to get my ass whopped? Damn I'm famous now. I guess my words are just too hurting and you just couldn't find words to get back at me? Well, you did get me on those CGI. I'll give you credits on that. Next time, just play with words aight. Its powerful and once you said it, you better not take it back coz you can't. Thats why think before you talk. Blogging? Hah. Get ideas and topic will ya? Sigh. I am not your friend OK. THAT... is not OK. I'd live over my life and rather not have known you. It was dumb. I should have heed those advice damnit. Its too late now. Ya ya-moving on.
Oh, and I do believe that, when you spend more time being alone, you DO think a lot. You think everything. Thinking towards the future, whats coming and all. It does work.
I told a friend this, "I always think ahead of whats coming because I won't feel deeply hurt when the worse is coming". Then she said, then you will get hurt twice? Well, I never thought of that, but life is as painful as it gets. Some of the people I've met and seen and observed, think they have seen the bad side of the world. Well, that ain't the world. That's fairytale kids. We are old enough to think and play mean on whats on to facing the crisis we're facing in the next 5 years maybe?
Ironically, the world is dying. Nobody's doing shit including me. Is it too late? My answer is yes. I don't blame our ancestors I blame homo sapiens. US. We kill the world. We kill among ourselves. We kill everything. If the world die, we die. We brought this upon ourselves.
When I talk too much, people say I'm crazy. When I'm quiet. You say I'm emo. When I say things that shouldn't be said you say I'm foul mouthed. I talk normally like everyone else's does, you people come attacking. Oh, one more thing I forgotten to mention. HE who talks more rubbish and not "funny" jokes gets more credits. Wow man, just wow. He-is-so- "funny". Ha-Ha-Ha. Connard!
Yes this post I am condemning people. You think I've gone too far? I don't take that. I've said enough. Some things are best left unsaid.
You want to know everything! Everything people talk about. Why? You are not like this before. You even want me to tell you when I'm attached. Why? You wanna celebrate?! Celebrate?! Hah. Damn you are just getting better. The fuck man the fuck?! "Who who who. What happen. Sigh." Not everything OK. This just not you. Never was. Things changed people changed. Not till this state. I mean what happened man. I'm not angry at you and all. I'm just sad it turned out to be this way today.
I wouldn't say I am right on everything I just said. BUT, EVERYTHING I SAID IS PURE FACTS. I GIVE YOU MY WORD!

Still think I have a sloppy memory?

2009-07-02T23:51:00.001+08:00

Lesson of the day: Stop playing once you twisted your ankle. For those who disobeyed simple instruction like this is a moron. *damn its swollen like pear*

Current Obsession

2009-06-30T13:12:00.020+08:00

So I was watching The Incredible Hulk on HBO, not its not Ang Lee's version. Its Edward Norton's .
Anyway, my obsession is ain't about the big green sasquatch. Its about every movie, has their very own pretty ladies. I'm serious, Superman has one, Batman has one, Romeo has one, damn.
Transformers was awesome, but not great, the leading foxy lady ain't that great either. She's well, catchy I guess? xD
Ahem, alright, my point is, there's this friend of mine was asking me, "why are you putting up male model instead of a lady?" I said I have none, and I don't really fancy asian ladies. Then along came Liv Tyler and some other more that I was once worship before. I'm talking bout some of the natural beauty. Not powdered face or botox or surgeries. Its all natural people!

Liv Tyler, daughter of Steven Tyler, uhm do anyone knows Aerosmith? Godamnit.~

Ain't she just breathtaking? Liv Tyler. Underrated lar!

Anne Hathaway, once a petit in Princess Diaries, now a hit!
She's always have that big eyes, awesome smile and innocent look. All natural beauty even without make-up!

She just have that elegance and beauty at the same time.

Ah yes, Claire Danes. How can I miss. In my personal opinion, she looks BEST when in Romeo + Juliet alongside Leonardo DiCaprio. Fuhhh. Fuhhh. :D

Pretty right? Especially as Juliet. Extra pretty.

Then we have the mesmerizing Jennifer Connelly. Who cannot recognize her green eyes?

She is still shining though its dirty and hot while shooting Blood Diamonds. See, natural beauty. LOL.

We also have the tough lady, Jennifer Garner. She was top in my list when Alias was on air though. Then she married to Ben Affleck and thats where she feel off the list.

For Justin, he's just one lucky dude for keeping Jessica Biel as his girl. She's on fire I tell you. Jessica Alba ain't nothing compared to her!

Told you she's hot. Alba is overrated!

Okay men, hold your horses. List ain't complete if Gisele Bundchen is not one of them.

Trust me, its not easy looking for Gisele's decent pictures.

That is all in my opinion though. Any more?

2009-06-29T14:12:00.001+08:00

Great, I have exactly one week to burn. And now I have back spasms, just Great~.
Ice Age 3 will you preview now already?

Love isn't always a fairytale.

2009-06-27T23:56:00.002+08:00

What you wish is never what you get.
Maybe I should have taken the first step. Thats what a guy should probably do. Well I was quite the other way round though. I was like caught between two minds. Heart says this the mind says the other. Shit happens all the time. I should have told her everything when I had that chance. Not that. On what happened basically the first day till today. I lied. Be considerate, it ain't a good time now. Its not about what I want. Its about stop lying to myself and to her. The best thing to do now is just wait, observe and see what happens. I always know that I was never good enough for her and she always deserve someone better than me. It was alright at the beginning, then it slowly declined. Guess it was my fault though. Hmm.
Well, you see here's the problem. My friend is confused about being in a relationships, whereas I still going solo am headache. How irony can life gets sometimes ae?
Ya sometimes you just remind yourself of how they are so alike. Scares you sometimes.
I guess I'm just having this empty holiday now and I start to think nonsense. LOL.

I need to let out.
Time will tell what I need to know.

2009-06-26T13:19:00.003+08:00

REST IN PEACE MJ. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED.

( 1958 - 2009 ) WE LOVE YOU MICHAEL.

2009-06-26T00:58:00.002+08:00

I thought of telling her everything at that moment. But the timing is just not right. Time will tell though.

2009-06-23T23:35:00.003+08:00

As everyone know about it, H1N1 influenza is spreading real fast.
A simple and caring reminder to all my beloved relatives and friends, be careful and take safety precaution. For those who take public transportation, it is wise to wear a mask. And try to stay home. Recently, Subang has just been hit. 1 carrier is enough to infect thousands, maybe millions. Try avoid going places with loads of tourists. If any of you are feeling unwell, head to the doc immediately.

*au revoir et salut *

-friendly message by Ian. :D

Mind made.

2009-06-23T23:20:00.005+08:00

I've chosen........... ***

=D Can't help it. Its very nice and comfy! xD
-But at the same time, I will be broke soon. REAL SOON.

Jarrod has it, I have it, BRYAN is getting one soon too.

Here comes the legacy~

2009-06-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

Tough decisions to make. Waiting for confirmation. Hmmm.

2009-06-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

DOES ANYONE REMEMBER ON HOW TO MAKE A PIE CRUST? ==
I'M SO DOOMED~

2009-06-19T17:21:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the whole controversial thingy going on with my blog. Its open to anyone now due to so many of you objected of me doing so. I prefer it this way actually.*

One Boring Sunday

2009-06-15T14:24:00.007+08:00

The Sun is blazing. The commotion is crazily insane. I've been facing my notebook for at least 4hours. No car. No money. No activity. No food.
Damn its boring and hot on the Sunday afternoon.
So I decided to bake the simplest cake, a butter cake. Just to simply kill time.
My mom's friends are here, perfect tea time. :D
I still have the touch for baking though its been sometime now.

Mix, stir and basically more mixtures.

See what boredness can actually do to you.

Damn oven, so bloody small. But hey, more than a decade already kayy. Haven't changed it before ever since we owned the house. Old school, classic, whatever it is. As long it works just fine.

And voila. There you have it. Simple butter cake. :D

Ignore that one hole there, I was just checking whether it is done or not. Coz I've forgotten the temperature and time. xD

Movies that are based on real events.

2009-06-14T13:01:00.006+08:00

Have you ever watched a movie that are so heart-warming and touching? Not fictional movies. Movies that are based on true story, or inspired by true story. The ones which really led me teary eyed everytime I watch is Pride. Starring Terrence Howard & Bernie Mac.

This movie is a damn good movie. Its about how swimming change the life of the troubled teens. Changes the perspect the whites towards the blacks in the movie. It's currently aired on Astro, Star Movies. PRIDE, damn good movie. "This is our house coach!"

This movie, is undoubtedly inspiring. I wept everytime when Timo Cruz is punished with 500push ups scene then the whole team stepped up and helped him. "Lose as a team, win as a team." This is one of the famous quotes in the movie other than "What is your gretest fear Mr Cruz?"

Ah. Yes Glory Road. Its about the whites discriminating the blacks in basketball, sets in the year of 1920s. A very supporting wife and family. A certainly must watch.

Then,there is this movie about football. Gridiron Gang. Its about giving second chance to those who have failed in their life by committing crimes. Ended up in a rehab center. And football changed their life. Giving them a grasp of success in life. "This is the Mustangs, you do it my way!"

Finally, one of the best movies of all time. Freedom Writers.
I seriously do not know how to explain the synopsis. But this movie is damn good in making the audiences weep.

I gotta buy a DVD of Freedom Writers. Seriously.

I'm Saved

2009-06-13T00:39:00.010+08:00

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All pictures are taken by Lee. Bonne nuit!!

2009-06-10T12:31:00.001+08:00

Geeez. I'm so anxious about Friday!
- Dooms Day Friday

2009-06-09T23:28:00.004+08:00

The Final Destination. Coming out soon. So damn awesome! Just go watch the trailer.
FYI, its not a horror movie. Its just, well, gore. xD
This is the official movie poster.

Same story. One of them has the ability to see the possible deaths. Yeah. Its the same shit since the first one. The best part is the graphic and the so called "accidents".

CAN'T WAIT

2009-06-07T02:01:00.001+08:00

What is friend for when you need them, you are invincible?!

Behind the scenes.

2009-06-07T00:13:00.009+08:00

The day we had Applied Tech class, we were taught on how to curve a carrot. Seriously Kar Phang, I need your assistance like immediately! I definitely got no techniques on curving. I was so damn frustrated when I couldn't get in into shape. Seriously, very frustrated. I tried like 2 carrots, radish, potato, but still no good results. I was so damn frust, coz I really love Culinary Arts, even basics I can't even master, what will ever happen if I am major in Culinary Arts? I am so mad at myself at that point.

These are the carrots,radish and potatoes they supplied for learning to curve. I really tried, but still I couldn't finish the right techniques!!! GahhhhhH!

And there, that's the perfect curve, done by Chef Tan. This is the point of the class on that day. Curving and the right strokes.

Class ended with me not mastering the curves yet. Damnit. Kar Phang, let's meet up and lets come up with some food.

Then I had a round 2(final) assessment on culinary the next day. Phew, gratefully or maybe by luck I improved by 2 points! Well, the first assessment I had 8/12, so ya, now I have 10. Actually I could have gotten full marks. Stupid me, I screwed cisele. Gahhhh.

And that's the recipe du jour. Well, my personal favourite is gotta be the risoler!

We started off with "sweating of the carrots". Any carrot lover? Then this is the definite meal for you. LOL. Served in small portion still basically okay. More than that, oh man. Hell no.

Then the results. Soft, sweet with no extra flavoring. :D

Then you have to multi-task.

And of course, a picture of yourself "busy". xD

And dayumm.. The mashed potato made by Chef Tan was so effing delicious!! Seriously, even without the gravy, we finished the whole big pot!! Damn yummy!!

Thats all I guess for that day. We went vegetarian on that day. Everything is vege.
Can't wait to actually know exactly how to cut a chicken, lamb or anything. xD

2009-06-04T15:24:00.001+08:00

Round 2 of kitchen assessment tomorrow. Hmmmmm...

2009-06-03T01:55:00.001+08:00

I'm Loving Green Tea! Green for the environment and Green for your health as well. Green Tea is AWESOME! xD

Speechless.

2009-06-02T16:07:00.010+08:00

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I gave my all. Something went wrong when it arrived home.
We did Assorted Fruit tart on Pastry class yesterday. I was so anticipated about the class and baking the cake, some may know why and I myself knows exactly why too.

Began with apple. 5 apples in total.

Thats my dough after stirring it. Stupid J stir and stir but no results. Pfft. Pathetic piece of shit.

Next, we were ordered to chop the apples into cubes. So there you have it, McD apple pie. LOL! Smells exactly like it!

Awww. Strawberries. How the remind me when I was in Cameron? My favs!!

Esther came up with the love with the balance of her dough. Creative enough. :D

Chef Kartina made hers so decorative. Hmmph. Sifu mah, what to do? xD That one on top is not done yet. Its only peach and ... damn I forgotten what is that. Then the strawberries came in. LOL!

And the final touch.

Nice right?! I don't understand why. Aihhh.

That one is my hardwork. The blind tart.

Along came the cream, peaches, and strawberries. I suck at garnishing it huh? Don't blame me coz we are out of time. We are behind schedule actually.

I'm trying not to put this to public. But a promise is a promise. I am a man of my word. I'll do something better than this. Just wait. :D

The Nomads, Bangsar.

2009-05-31T12:14:00.012+08:00

As promised I would post about my college trip to The Nomads, here I am.
I didn't know what is The Nomads or where is it. I thought it was some bakery shop, or an F&B outlet or something like that. Turns out to be it is a service apartment which is located some where in Bangsar.
Yes, that place is astounding.

When the bus stops before the buildings, JY & I were saying, "wah, this house also so big ah?" actually we're here.

Aloha!

2009-05-27T16:31:00.021+08:00

DH33 Hawaiian Night was so awesome. Mostly coz the girls were screaming out loud for the hottest lecturer alive, Mr Anthony. Ya he's handsome, young and all, even got his masters already. Every time he gets on stage, girls will scream and scream. Basically, Mr Anthony really stole our (the student guys) limelight. xD
I do not know why my camera went wrong, its like every picture I took its just so blur. Damn. The pictures I took cannot be seen clearly already. Luckily that one and only picture is clear! Thanks JY for being my cameraman. The food was awesome first of all. Its all prepared by DH30 (our seniors). The food are just too awesome. SERIOUSLY.
I felt awkward and weird wearing too many colors and flowers at first. But more and more people came in, I felt I'm part of the colorfulness of it. :D
Sad to say, EVERY pictures I have are so so blurry. Can't even see Ms Jasmine's face in the picture. So damn potong steam.
This is where we held our party. L'escoffier. *which is also our practical restaurant*.

Again, the seniors and lecturers organized this welcome party for the new batch of students (us), DH33. Sweet isn't it? xD You see the lecturers behind the scene. They are wild, loud and open. Sad that Mr Mayukh couldn't make it. Awwww. Mr YTB, fuhh, his like drunk that night. Dayumm.

These are some the opening pics we had in front of Santa Ines. Miss Jasmine is like the front beside Coleny. Due to my pitiful camera, the picture went awry.

Miss Jasmine is squatting in front of JY, the dude in green shirt. Should have been clearer. She's my F&B lecturer. She's very pretty ... and fierce. Okayy, moving on...

Here is Ben enjoying his drink. Eventually he won the best dressed award. Haha! He should win. He came in really Hawaiian feel. With the straw hat and sunglasses. No doubt he's the champ for the night.

Seriously, no one recognized Ben when he entered the campus. LOL. Good job Ben. xD

I told you the food was good. See, everyone is rushing to the buffet sets. Everyone dressed up to the most colorful they can find inside their closet, *I guess their closet is out of color already*. But everything was cool. Got to meet everyone from other groups! Lets parttttyy!

Hmm. Yummy yummy filled my tummy. :D The spaghetti was great, pizzas, spring rolls, and honey chicken wings. Fuhhh. Haha!

After some light refreshments, everyone was called to gather around the stage. Some performances from the seniors as well as the lecturers. Cool ae?

They were singing the Lilo & Stitch's song, Can't help falling in love with you. Haha! Everyone was kinda high that time. And some really cool Hawaiian songs. Though the song is originated from the King himself, Elvis Presley.

Some of them were too high, they couldn't help themselves but to dance with the emcees. LOL.
The best part is Ken-Ann went to the FRONT and took picture of Mr Anthony while he was talking. Everyone just got stunted and looked at her! What a brave soul. *Caution: Possible cat fight*

Haa.. What a night it was!

Then I took picture with my group mates, Di Wei and Ee Laine. Di Wei wanted to wrap her hands around my waist, coz she does that often when taking pictures, I wasn't feeling that comfy about it? I mean like the "geli" feeling. Haha! She said, oh okayy you cannot tahan is it? LOL. Malunyerrr.

Then today in bus, she asked again, Ian, you cannot tahan is it when girls touch you like that? I just like freaked out, and nod to whatever she's saying. Geeez. I like this picture alot eventhough its blur, thanks to JY only using a hand taking this pic! xD

Here's Ben and I. He look so.. horny? xD I don't know. I like his accent. That's one. And his clothing that night. xD

It's really been a funny and wild night!

This is the lecturer I was talking about.

Mr Anthony. He's only 24 and so damn mischievous and already has his Masters. Goshsome. Aihh. And the big sasquatch on his right is Mr Gopi. He's from Klang and a good friend to Mr Anthony. Btw, Anthony is my Front Office lecturer. Am attending his class l8r at 3. Final class. Guess the girls in my group will not be as lively anymore. xD

I only manage to take a picture with him. His kinda hurry to take a puff I guess?! hahaha!

I think I will want his msn. hahaha. Maybe chat and talk cock with him. Ya, even in class we talk like friends. HAHA. Not to mean to disrespect, I mean like after class or break time. Ya, we will COCK!

The best is saved for the last. People, she's Angeline. She's quiet and friendly. She should have won the best dress. *i think she's reading this* die la die la. Anyway, as I was saying, she's very nice. She's from Klang as well.

Tsk tsk. Bad photography Jun Yan. hahaha! But thanks anyway. We can be buddies! xD

After that I went home already. Around 930 plus. Just to be safe, coz its dark and I took the train alone. I didn't know Angeline & Sobarthi would be taking the train. Or else I could have wait a lil longer. Wouldn't make much difference. Sorry.
Oh, and I might attending French classes to improvise my French. Easier for me to cope for the coming French classes also. Hmmm.

The following day, we had trip to The Nomads, Bangsar. Post will be updated soon. Stay tuned. :D

2009-05-26T22:34:00.001+08:00

Hawaiian Night pics coming up! Stay tuned... :D
* You're so damn hot in any clothes you wear* So beautiful! xD

Introducing...

2009-05-23T19:36:00.005+08:00

Ya. Finally I'm not really going solo anymore. LOL. Maybe sometimes still solo but not that bad. At least I found friends to kpc during lunch. Introducing Adam Benjamin (Ben) from G3.

He's a mix of French & Malay. At first I thought he was those typical Malay. His mix! hahaha. He told me that pork is a damn good meat. hahaha. So ya, he speaks French and attended Lycee Francais KL school at Secondary. Sometimes he talks, I don't understand coz his accent is too damn strong. hahhaa.

Next, this guy is from my group. Jeremy. He's quite tall. Tall la. Maybe I hang grow up with Bryan thats why tall people looks average to me. hahaha. I don't know, everyone from my group says that Jeremy is too damn tall.

I even heard he plays basketball. Can't wait to duel with him one day. Just pumps me up knowing someone from my group shares the same interest like me.
Well. I guess thats all for now though. hahaha.

Can't wait for Hawaiian Nite nxt Tues!! Woooo~

Screwed?

2009-05-22T16:41:00.005+08:00

I had my culinary assessment last... 2 weeks ago. Di Wei, Ee Laine and I got lectured from Chef Tan during the AT class for culinary coz we wore fomal. *Damn*. Wasn't worth the hits we got from chef tan as we didn't know! We just said assume. And Chef Tan replied, " Do you know whats the meaning of assume?" I said thought? NO. He said assume means> Ass-u-me. Then he kinda like insulted by the word.. But no big deal. Then he lecture and lecture and lecture for like 15 mins. Man I tell you. So guess what, wearing formal with no knife sets, along came a great news. He said he wanted to give assessment tomorrow and now he wants to teach! WTF.
No big deal. Its all about talent.
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Then tomorrow. Assessment day. I practised yesterday night cutting my mom's carrots and onions. I wanted to throw it away, my mom screwed me and asked me it's still can be put to used. She asked me to fry an egg and eat NOW. ==.
Okayy, never mind that. It was quite a success la I guess coz the day before during AT class we never had carrots, we had radish instead. Radish is softer while carrot is harder. I guess this whole thing was part of his conspiracy. (Chef Tan).
Moving on to assessment day.
We have 3mins to peel that carrot and onion. Dumb me taken the bigger one coz I thought bigger one is easier to be julliened later on. I was wrong.

Very lazy to rotate the pic. Pardon me. LOL.

Then nxt, we have to cut into *oh shit I don't know what style is this*.

Sad to say, I didn't finish the carrot in the given time-2mins. Stupid carrot.
I wish Bugs Bunny were here. xD Then Chef Tan checked thoroughly, said, you take long time but still not yet perfect. He gave me 2. Still OK.
Oh ya, he named all these assessments as a game. Ya, game. ==. So lame.
Next, haha, jullienne.Woohoo! My favourite. Getting pro already la now. At least Chef said something nice. He said GOOD. hahaha.

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Then my fingers are turning to orange color due to too big carrot.
The next "game" is cisele. Its all in French term, so those words I'm typing doesn't mean it is pronounced that way. I learnt my lesson. xD
Its actually cutting it from an onion. Almost cried. Nola don't have. Coz the ventilation was good enough to prevent the onion's weapon.

After all those so called games, I earned myself 8/12 marks. Phew. Oklar not so bad afterall though.
That chef dude asked us to prepare a soup. A soup?! We were puzzled as hell. No clue. No guidance at all. We just taruk nasib. What comes out, gulp* come out larh!
So being a chef wannabe. I act pro. Add here add there. And boom! >>>
* i don't know whr the pics went *

Anyway, it looked presentable but taste badly. HAHAHA!
chill chill. First time kayy. More to come. xD

Phew. Thats all la for the past few week I was M.I.A. I hope ya'll enjoy those craps I have written.
Solo still in college. But not for long. xD

Resuming Life.

2009-05-22T16:22:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the long delays that I took to update my blog. Assessments and assignments are flowing in non-stop, days after days. Phew. Well, hmmm where should I start off with?
Well, few weeks back I learned to bake Choux Chantily. (See I know how to bake something else than butter cake). What is it? It is a bread actually. Which is easier to prepare compared to butter cake I guess?

This is how it looks like before it is put into oven. Its not that I'm being greedy or what, is just that I have too much of it. Have to finish it. Don't waste. "Sek tai mou sai". xD

The best part is that we even have almond nuts as our topping. LOL. As we put into the oven, we melted some chocolates, caramelized some sugar and one more some white white thingy tasted like vanilla which is so so mesmerizing.
Jeng jeng jeng!!
The result>>> >>>

Everyone brought their containers whereas I'm still solo as usual, did not ask any but to walk out to mamak stall to get those polysterene to actually "ta pau" home for my parents. Tasted so good as heaven when the choux is still hot from oven! I ate I don't know maybe 6,7 maybe more? haha. Can't remember. Pheww..
I guess thats all for now. FYI, I did not update my blog coz my laptop was sent for service. For like 3weeks.

The next post I'm going to talk about my culinary assessment. Stay tuned. :D

2009-05-19T15:44:00.002+08:00

Wow, Guo Zhen. Faster than I expected! Aren't you supposed to be studying now as in exams are so around you? hahaha! Can't wait for your return. *want to slap you*. hahaha!

To my brother from another mother.

2009-05-16T21:24:00.003+08:00

Hey Guo Zhen, if you're reading this, now, or whenever I don't know, add my facebook k. Lots of things wanna talk to you about. tansierng@yahoo.com.
Anyway, the time when you're coming home, its a good month indeed! xD
Take good care aight.

2009-05-15T00:06:00.001+08:00

I'm so screwed for my culinary assesment tomorrow!
What cutting techniques like cisele and etc. GOD save my soul.

Every Hotelliers Dream.

2009-05-09T15:31:00.006+08:00

Okay, I admit. Dubai is awesome. No, its more than just awesome. Its iconicly every hotelliers would want to go. Undoubtedly I would want to go there as well. xD
But France is definitely a must if I had collected enough cash and a whole lot good results to pursue my degree in Universite of Toulouse.
Anyway, out of nowhere I was impressed by the architectures of Dubai. This feeling was triggered when I was in college studying Business of T & H, we were discussing about Dubai. And there, interest.
First we have the freaking awesome Palm Island of Dubai. Its so cool, you can see it from space. The capacity of workers are 2 times more than the citizens of Dubai. Yes, unbelieveably true. The Palm Islands are in Dubai already. Wonder if...

Damnit, it looked so awesome in the picture already, what happens if you see it personally? Will go like "Dayummmmm!!"

Next we have the Burj tower, which is not there in Dubai due to some delays. It will simple take over the title of the tallest building in the world after Burj al-Arab which is .. also in Dubai. (A lil bit kiasu huh, don't ya guys think? xD)

Thats the Burj tower. Aihh. All these dreams. Seems so near yet so far.

And this is my favourite of all towers- Burj al-Arab. Its the only 7 stars rated hotel in the world. Which hotelliers wouldn't wanna work there?! Geez man. Argh!!
Haha! If anyone of you'd know what the hell am I talking about the Burj al-Arab, thank you so much. Its just so indescribable.

There are actually alot more from Dubai. It is not all postponed due to some political reasons. You'll be amazed to even see their sketch and plans. So smart and kiasu. All I remember is the upcoming buildings or lands are world class. Instance like first in the world, biggest in the world and stuff like that. Everything.

I'll just show you the Dynamic tower of Dubai which is so scientific. Why is it scientific? coz it rotates. YES a tower that rotates. For example, if you wanna go to the lobby, you have to wait till it rotates only you find your way there. A bit dumb and cool at the same time though! xD Freaking futuristic!!!

W-O-R-D

2009-04-30T23:40:00.003+08:00

OKAY! LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT! BASICALLY I'M NOT GOOD IN THESE ORIGAMI! OFTEN I GET CONFUSED AT STEP 2 OR 3. Never mind, as class gets longer and longer, I find it quite interesting and easy! Easy peezy lemon squeezy! xD
Unfolding it is an art! Only one step to unlock the secrets! Actually quite fun la ya. I was being rebelious throughout the class saying No. No. No.

2009-04-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

Something is not right. Something. Something. It will be the same scenario.

2009-04-22T17:55:00.002+08:00

I have a team to lead this Sunday, they are relying on me.
I am relying myself too. Unfortunately, my legs aren't allowing me to do so.
I will go beyond limits! Whats done is done. I will only go checkups after then. No regrets! I will lead them to glory!!

Bakery Session.

2009-04-20T18:48:00.004+08:00

Finally we have pastry class after it got delayed.
Well, what can I say? I've never baked in life, and today was my first time doing it and its quite nice actually. Haha! Maybe I got talent for baking too. Breaking that frozen butter to liquid by using only your hands is definitely draining. Gosh, I was so into that butter for a moment. Finalizing it into smaller molecules actually.
I love baking already! xD
Though for today's lesson, we learnt our very very darn very basic of baking. We learnt how to bake a Butter Cake. It was fun fun fun! Haha! But my partner, aww man why Jeniffer. Curses!!!
Okay, moving on. We followed steps by steps shown by Ms Kartina and wala.

It tastes good I'm telling you. Some of us brought it home coz we baked too many and couldn't finish it. I brought it home and shared with my family. They said it was good, not too sweet either. Okay!
I've been telling everyone lets take a group picture. Everyone tagged in with some poyo faces and funny looking and weird etc etc.

Ignore the bloated tummy of mine. The chef uniform is freaking thick and hard. It made everyone looked huge! Funny part was when Ee Laine tying the apron on, she was so skiny till she has to go 3 rounds! Haha! I introduce you, Group 2.
Back row- Jeniffer ==, Vick, Jeremy, Adrian & Aster.
Middle row- Me, Kevin, Kah Wen, Ee Laine(chinese not malay. PURE CHINESE!!),& Tharshi frm India.
Front row- Di Wei & Wai Yee.

Well, thats about it. Seriously, the chef uniform made me look real bloated! So embarrassing.

My Alter-Ego.

2009-04-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

Okay. I assume myself had made countless enemies and given very bad impression to almost everyone I've met. I apologize.
I must change for the better. Everything or everyone have choices to make. Now, no. Its not options for me to pick, but a priority to make.
Sometimes I am hyped, well sometimes sarcasm takes over, and for the very last time, you wouldn't like to be around when I am mad.
Probably by saying all these, uncovering truths about me, will just make people stay further away from me. Its up to you to think that way. I will change.
Not just for the sake of my family or friends. I wanna change because I want to be better. I want to be "that" guy. Her idealistic guy. I wanna be with her. But first, I have to prove I am capable of managing myself well enough before I can take care of her. Changing to good is never easy. At least I take that chance. I know my family won't be here forever. Sooner or later, everyone will leave earth.
I regretted. But I'm still the same old hot head. I will seek help elsewhere to change. By changing myself, I change people-people's perceptions towards me.
Definitely I know this won't be easy. Nothing in the world is easy. Nevertheless for free. I have to earn my respect.
But *hey, I will change. And I will have my confidence. Its just a matter of time. But will you be waiting? Or again, I am too late? I will be better and by being better I will date you!

So Tagged.

2009-04-15T22:51:00.003+08:00

100 TRUTHS

001. Real name : Tan Si Erng
002. Nickname(s) : Panda/ Beast.
003. Age: 17 and 9 months
004. Zodiac sign : Cancer, the shy one. xD
005. Male or female : Male
006. Elementary : Methodist.
007. Middle School : SK Simpang Lima (2)
008. High School : SMK TAR
009. College school: TCHT.
010. Hair color: Black
011. Long or short: Short
012. Loud or Quiet: Depends. Seriously!
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.
014. Phone or Camera: Phone.
015. Health freak: Nope.
016. Drink or Smoke?: Never smoke. Bad drinker. One dose & I'm dope.
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes.
018. Eat or Drink : Eat. :D
019. Piercings : I can't. Hotelliers aren't allowed to.
020. Tattoos : Nehh.
021. Social or Anti-Social: Depends again.
022. Righty or lefty: Ambidextrous babeh! xD

FIRST:
023. First piercing: No.
024. First relationship: 2005
025. First Best Friend: Kelvin, Std1-still going strong!.
026. First Award: I know! Best eng handwriting in my chinese school! 1999. Serious!
027. First Kiss: Nope.
028. First Pet: Dog.
029. First Big Vacation: Nope.
030. First Love at first sight: Nil.
031. First Big Birthday: Probably 1 year old?
032. First Surgery: Nil.
033. First sport you joined: Soccer.
034. Orange or Apple juice: Apple!
035. Rock or Rap: Rock- MCR babeh!
036. Country or Screamo: Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney spears
039. Night or Day: Day
040. Sun or Moon: Moon
041. TV or Internet: Internet
042. Playstation or xbox: XBox la.
043. Kiss or hug: Hug.
044. Iguana or turtle: Fuck lizards! Turtles instead!! Geez!
045. Spider or bee: Bee. :D
046. Fall or spring: Fall.
047. Limewire or iTunes: Limewire
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating : nothing
050. Drinking : nothing
051. Excitement level: 0/10? About what?
052. I'm about to : Take a shower.
053. Listening to : 1,2,3,4 by Plain White T's.
054. Plans for today : Camwhore with my new uniforms!
055. Waiting for : Nobody.
056. Energy level: 8/10
057. Thinking of someone: Not yet.

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids?: Ya sure.
059. Want to get married?: Yes.
060. When: 15years later.
061. How many kids do you want: 3.
062. Any names on the mind: Not yet.
063. What did you want to be when you're a kid: Tan Tan Chiu Yan!! Nola, doctor. Haha!
064. Careers in mind: Future hotellier.
065. Mellow future or wind:Mellow Future
066. Something you would never try: Drugs.
067. When you want to die: After I've completed my tasks as Tan Si Erng.

I assume this is talking bout my ideal girl.
068. Lips or eyes : Eyes-Eyebrows. xD
069.Romantic or Funny: Romantic
070. Shorter or taller?: Taller
071. Protective or Caring: Caring
072. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: Heart.
074. Sensitive or loud: Loud
075. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker!
077. Muscular or normal: Normal, though Jessica Alba's bod is dayumm.

HAVE YOU EVER:
078. Kissed a stranger: Never.
079. Broken a bone: Yes.
080. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes.
081. Ran away from home: Yes.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: No lah.
083. Killed somebody: Crazy.
084. Broken someone's heart: 2005.
085. Had your heart broken: 2006,2007,2008. All HER!
086. Been arrested: Nope
087. Cried when someone died: No.
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Yes. Lee Lian.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself: Yes
090. Miracles: Yes
091. Love at first sight: Yes.
092. Heaven: Yes
093. Santa Claus: Milk & cookie? No I don't.
094. Sex on the first date: That'll be some horny couple.
095. Kissing on the first date: Why not?
o96. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now: I wish to.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: Not happy but satisfied & glad.
099. Do you believe in God: Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

I tag everyone on my list.

Random

2009-04-15T11:47:00.001+08:00

Being in college now, typing all these bullshits, that means I've taken my typhoid innoculation jab and doing my Thai cuisine assignments. GodDamnit. Gotta hand in next Monday already. At 2 o'clock we are ready to collect our uniforms. I'm so anticipated about the Chef uniform! So awesome.. isn't it?

Wrong Impression

2009-04-14T22:46:00.003+08:00

My group says I'm too quiet.
"Hey Ian, share la with us, anything? Open la to anything we are your friends wei.2years together you know. Share la."As usual, I gave them the cold face/smiley sneaky face.
Anyway, as I was saying, group members of mine (the other members) asked they wanna have lunch with me. At that point, I'm not in the mood because the weather was sick.
I couldn't say no, I said yes instead. We had lunch, the guys were okay whereas the fat ass-showy-rich-bitchy-girl started to talk.
"Have you guys been to clubs before? Well, I'm a regular clubber ( no one asked) I go here I go there * pardon me I have forgotten the venues, and there she is yepping and yepping slowly taking over the conversation. Club club club, well is that all you know? Then she started saying her bf is a DJ some shit, he's 30+, the parents allows her to club to late night. Well girl, bla bla bla. ==
Then to my surprise, its my turn.
"How bout you Ian? Do you club? You can follow us/me if you want. Transportation can always be arranged."
Why am I not surprised. Haha! I just nodded my head and say NO-firmly. "For me clubbing is a waste of time, I rather spend my evening shooting hoops or hang out/makan. Thats what I said. * acting cool for the moment la*. Everyone understood pretty well.
Then come this suggestion, "Hey do you guys wanna go for pool?" This time I really got pissed off. I said "Ok, why not."
I followed them till outside then there was I, vanished among the crowds. So long suckers! HAHAHAHA! Geez man. Get a life~.
I spent most my hours at the IT Lab and Library Lounge to get some sleep. It all worked pretty well.
So far, there are some members in my group I'm still not sure to give my trust. Well, you know 2years. At least my first day friend, Calvin, is a nice guy.
Tomorrow I'm getting my uniforms & knifesets & a jab on typhoid. GODDamnIt I hate needles! Arghhh!

I'll try to get some cool shots of me and my group members with our uniforms on tomorrow. Stay tuned! Teeheee! xD

Au Revoir!

Adjusting to College

2009-04-12T14:32:00.004+08:00

As everyone had already know, I am a Taylorian of Hospitality.

My first class had commenced yesterday in Santa Ines restaurant. Well, the subjects are on Food & Beverage, so it all begin with families of forks and spoons, knives, plates, saucers, utensils and more unknown utensils.

Miss Jasmine is her name and she is fabulous! I mean she's professional in what she does and very disciplined. Punctuality is a priority in her class.

13 students are in my group, I'm in Group 2 btw and I am well exempted from extra english classes. 5guys, 8chicks.

Being a very non-socialable guy, its hard to talk cock with them or even start a conversation. I know, once I get to know them well enough, I'mma rock them hard on their heads!

Besides getting to know the silverwares and crockeries, we had our chance to look at the kitchen and tour around the restaurant.

We were told that the VIPs are coming, and lectures were busy setting the tables and I manage to get a pic.

The table was complete with settings, marbles to create the feel of a lunch hour, and lastly sunflowers to create the ambience of our restaurant.
Well thats all for now. I'm currently in Black Canyon with Kelvin for lunch, decided to bring my laptop along to finish my homework.

Au Revoir!

2009-04-09T19:16:00.001+08:00

" Paris Hilton " just smacked my arse!
Darn that "Paris". I should just dropped you at the hulla hoops.

2009-04-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

I will ROCK Taylors School Of Hospitality & Tourism!
I promise myself to redeem the past, -to achieve success, NOW or NEVER!

Here Comes Goodbye.

2009-03-30T13:51:00.002+08:00

No more good food, no more good jokes, no more Nepalese language, no more Bangala curses, no more good team, no more Miss Don, no more Black Canyon Coffee.
Its goodbye.

Special thanks to the good kitchen department who always cooks good food for my break time. Special Crew Leader, Bodharaj. No more slow slow la bai, no more stupid faces, no more jokes from him. Krishna is the coolest chef in town. The way he walks is like so awesome. He's tall, thin and quite good looking for a husband a dad for 3 children and he's 33 years old. Awlad is the weirdest guy from Bangladesh. But he's funny all rounder and teaches me some of the kick ass words of Bangala. Monzu, well, what can I say, he only smiles and laughs when I say boro botah. And he smells too much like a kitchen man. The kitchen staff really taught me a thing or two on food. Really appreciate the knowledge I've earned.

Service department is always the most conflict. First few weeks was a working hell experience for me. As I get better and progressed in my way of working, everything seemed to be in place and teamwork starts to take over. Our captain, Zakire is the coolest dad you can ask for. He's the oldest in Black Canyon and the funniest. He's so hardworking and all for his family back in Bangladesh. The "dad" of Black Canyon. Everyone calls him uncle even Miss Don does that. Yuzana is at first my most hated person. Sooner, she starts to take it easy on me and we became friends. LOL.
Dhanalal and Shalik are the coolest bud there. We just have so many things in common and we talk about our background almost all the time. And Shalik-barista make awesome drinks for me and Cheng too.

Where to start about Miss Don? I really do not know where. She's worked too hard. And the 2 so called supervisors are such pigs. So darn lazy. Wonder why your kind of people are so lazy. Even foreign workers labelled you that. Chinese living in Malaysia even felt the pinch. Aren't the skin colour like yours should be heading back to your real home?
Miss Don, I've learned so much while working with you and the Black Canyon. Handling customers,placing settings, cleaning and managing staffs are the things I've learned. I've become more mature for the outside world. I am ready. Thank you Miss Don. Without your guidance, I wouldn't have got the QSC. All my triumphs will be always dedicated to you. A million of words couldn't explain how thankful I am to have you a manager. I will come back.

How will I ever Know

2009-03-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

How will I know you aren't like her?

How will I know you are just playing me, just like her?

How will I know, all these are just mirage and your words are lies?

I wish not make the same mistake I did for the long 2 years I've been through and hell it was shattering when it was all lies. Time changes everything. A person, a situation and even life changing experience.

What if I made the wrong move at the wrong time? Maybe even the wrong person, will it be forgiven then? Will I ever lose one more friend?
The whole commosion will be awkward when we are fated to see each other again.

She brought me down single handedly-mentally. My confidence has been brought that by her. I can't say I hate her, neither I can say she is a bitch. I just don't want to see her.

How will I ever know I will end up the same just like I shared the few dreadful years before? Are you really different?
I would like to know. Open up the door already, I would like, really wish to know more about you.

One day, sooner or later, how will I ever know..

March on, soldiers.

2009-03-18T00:12:00.002+08:00

They came back and the up next chosen one are going again.
Lee Lian is leaving this Thursday, Shu How is leaving.
And I've done nothing to catch up with them. NOTHING. Those guilt. Aihh, I apologize to you Lee and Shu How. I wish I had more time with you guys. Got stucked with work, with life, with education and everything, I know its almost excuses, but I mean it and I deeply apologize. I'll make it up for everything when you people return. I'll miss you.

Shu How, well what can I say about you? You're too friendly, too bubbly, too cheerful, almost all the time you were laughing at your own jokes though some of it was very good. You're a good friend. Before you moved, we were best of buddies. Cycling around our housing area to breakfast, dinner, to courts even sometimes we even make sacrifices to just meet up with Jun Ting to Comix. Well, such moments are unforgettable. Those days we were really tight. The three of us were like I don't know Batman, Robin and Batgirl? xD Until I broke my arm, the 3 of us never really had a day out after that. Then the jinx went to Shu How. All of us went to seperate ways. Jun Ting decided to stay at Hin Hua Secondary, meanwhile Shu How went Kwang Hua, while me went straight to Star. Years passed, we grown up, Shu How surpassed us by his height and weight by a lot. How we mocked each other when all of us were still here. Things changed when one day, Shu How told me he was going to move. I thought I'd loss a pal, a buddy, a companion, a mentor. Without notice, he moved. For a moment there, we didn't contact each other. I thought it was over, our friendship. He came back one day, I was smiling all over again. We laughed at ourselves during those days on how stupid we were on doing things.
Now you're leaving. I've not seen you for the past 2 weeks. I broke my promise when I said lets meet up for breakfast. Aihh. One day you will return after your 3 months training and we will be just the old days.
How will I miss you too my friend. Thanks for everything. I am very grateful to have met you in my life. And I owe you that. Take care my dear friend.

Lee Lian, well she's my bestest trusted friend and I'll never do anything to turn her in. It just makes me guilt that I've not done anything, for instance like meeting up, catching stories when we were back in those high school days. Those were the days. Sigh. I hate it when she's leaving for 3 months "vacation" thats what she calls it, holiday. Not seeing her doesn't feel right. Its like we used to see each other everyday back in school. For now, at least we will still see each other few times a month. 3 months vacation for her isn't cool at all.
I know she'll knock herself out there. She's a brave soul. Well Lee, if you need someone to talk to during her first few nights, you know I'm here. Best pal for life. You know I mean it. Thanks for everything Lee.
You're LEE! Take care my dear friend. We, us, me, will certainly miss you from home.
You be good aight. Take care.

Top Dogs

2009-03-16T00:23:00.009+08:00

There are over thousands of breeds of dogs around the globe. Some may be just like me who adores dogs than, cats. Well, I just don't bare with that poop and that hissing thingy when they are involved in a cat fight. Just scares the crap outta me.
Well, there are a few dogs on my list which I really want. Well I had one of it before, it ran away. Damn the gate was unshut. Oh well, my list continues.

C'mon, a friend of mine actually found this dog and brought it home. It died 3 years later. Though it wasn't a good watchdog, it certainly can swoop off your guests!

This is an iconic dog that has been around for ages. I bet you guys still remember Snoopy right? xD
Yup, this dog IS snoopy! Well, I checked the price for the full vaccinated pup, micro-chipped, it costs around RM1200. Was like damn~

For a watch dog, I prefer to have Boxer. Its like so muscular, well built, cute tail, and friendly natured but fierce looking. xD So it'll definitely will wear thieves off my house.

Basically, those are the dogs that are admirable to me. To start off to another topic, the perfect dog which I rated it as a handsome dog is a Siberian Husky.

Don't you think that Siberian Huskies are too handsome to be a dog? I seriously think so. Unfortunately that this breed are meant to live in colder countries. Not really suitable for a country like ours. Their fur will start falling and their life span will be shortenend. Though, its really a cool dog to bring to the park instead bringing priceless jewelleries to show off. :D

Perhaps the most ideal dog to have in a family is the Golden Retriever. I mean who doesn't want a Golden Retriever? It has natural obedience, it's easy to be trained and listen to orders and are very friendly natured to people. I have to admit that it is very tough to maintain its fur though. I always wanted this breed as an ideal pet. Its so over the hook when I got to know the fully vaccinated price and stuff, it costs around RM 3000+. Goodness gracious. Once I almost got it from my mum's friend, too bad we had a Tsih Tzu at home. Dad wouldn't want more poop around his house. So we had to turn down the offer. Damnit!

Lastly, not forgetting 'Marley' a Labrador which is almost the same as Golden Retriever is also an ideal pet to have in a family. Its easier to maintain Labrador as their fur is much shorter than Golden Retrievers. They are quite the active one, at least you have to spend alot of time with it a day to get them moving.

Well, I guess that's about it. I have a few more in mind but couldn't recall their breed. Perhaps the best of all is still Golden Retriever. I'll have it one day!

Marley and Me, and me.

2009-03-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

So I had 3 hours break today. Bryan and 'clan' went Aeon, and I decided to tag along to watch Marley and Me. I heard about the ending, well, roughly.
Damn.
One thing for sure, never to watch any pet-dying movies with my loved ones or friends. Its so embarrasing. I kept crying and weeping away. I thought it was a boring movie at first. It started to get along well in the middle of the movie and towards the end. Well, I hate to say this, but I wept like a girl watching this sensitive movie.
Well, perhaps maybe I've connection with me the movie. Ya, you heard me.
I had this dog, died of old age, I'm sure its 18 human years. I'm serious. So basically dog years is like a decade?- I'm serious. It got blind, deaf, fur started falling, nervous system starting fail. We had no choice but to send it to the vet, the doc did his best to do what he does best. Its too old, we have no choice but to put it to "sleep". It was June 17, 2005. I just returned from school. My parents were there, my sister and I. We were all there, saying our last goodbye. We wept in tears, silently, its like your heart is stabbed by a knife.

Its name was, Freeway.

2009-03-09T00:26:00.002+08:00

Only for a month and the half, the best service person goes to yours truly, me. :D
I was shocked, surprised. I did not see it coming. Not at all. Guess it did boosted my confidence for taking up courses like Hotel Management?

Absolutely unforgettable.

2009-03-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

I would'nt rate this movie a rather good one or a bad one. This novel by Alan Moore is way too dark, too complex and basically too smart. Maybe we're aren't old enough to understand what is life or the true nature of mankind and sort shit like that. Well, basically thats about the plot-the human nature thingy.
Rorschach- is my choice of character in that movie! xD
If you were to ask me whether should you watch this watchmen, I would say not too. Its running time is about 165 minutes. Yup, but not to say its that Unwatcheable, its still can-watch that kind of feel then slowly you'll feel dumb. :D

Anyway, I should get the novel. I heard it was brilliant!

Personality Dope.

2009-03-05T14:34:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

* I admit it. Its very true. Especially on that mood thingy. Ask my friends about it. Anyway, comment bout it aight. xD. See what you guys think of it.